I remembered once during one of the days before exam back in high school. My dad saw me cramming for the exam the next day and asked "Next time, if you go to uni, you think you can still study one day before for exams mer?" I just shrugged and brushed his question aside. Now that I'm already in uni, the answer to that question is crystal clear. Of course, I CAN'T. Even if I was given a week each for each subject, I would still not remember everything well let alone be well-prepared. I tend to study, and forget. grrr. What's with me saying I have to be consistent throughout the semester and then ended up not doing so? sigh. I can honestly say I only start reading and understanding my whole course materials during study week, about 1 week before exam period. How is that enough for all subjects? I really should be shot dead for not learning my lesson. heh.
Yays, i never knew having internet on the phone could be so addictive. I've never used d service until about half a year back, though i had it since day 1 of using this phone. *dunno y i can't start a new paragraph* had an open book exam n despite it being open book, i think i did really badly. Sigh. Thanks to procrastination. Oh well.. Man i really dun deserve to pass, but i still hope i do. Anyway, am in library studying for my next exam, last one. Then i realised how soon i'm going back already. Time really flies n it's still quite hard to accept d fact dat another year is coming to an end again. Time to think of some new year's resolutions although i've never actually made up any over d past years. Well, this time i gotta make some resolutions n at least attempt to stick to them. Time for studying. Tata!
Oh well.. time flies. I'm going back soon. Can't wait, can't wait! I'm currently at the library now at this late hour.. library closes at 3 am during exam period. Suppposed to start studying.. but I always need some warm-up before I study. It's either, facebooking/youtubing/doing dishes/watching tv, or anything that is not study-related. So yes, it's that one of the two dreaded times of the freaking year again - exam period! grrrr. hate it. Well, who doesn't right? This semester, I've been lucky. Instead of having TWO BLOODY FREAKING exams on the very first day of a 3-week exam period, I start on the 2nd week. I've never had exams that start so late(as in only start first paper in 2nd week) so I'm very thrilled, when I have an extra week to study for the exams. That being a good thing, I don't know if I've been utilising the extra time I have well. I was stilll doing last-minute cramming last night, for my exam this morning that I didn't even sleep. What a relieve to be over and done with the killing "suspense" of not going to the exam hall yet though. I mean, it's good that I start late, and get to study more, but still, it seems like it's taking forever for the day to arrive, it's like countdown for about half a month, and finally it's here. So nice to break that stupid suspense, when I finished my very first paper today. I feel much more relaxed and not so tensed eventhough I did really badly in the exam,sigh. Everyone else has already had like 2 or 3 papers and I'm still on 1. But that's fine, MORE time to study! That's the most important part. Still got two more papers to go, gotta gambateh. I know everyone else is also cramming for exams nowadays, Good luck to u guys! Study hard!
Alright, boring exam stuff aside, I feel like getting an internship in Brunei but I don't think anyone wants to get me for only about 1 & 1/2 months coz usually it's for 3 months at least. Haih, maybe should find a random part time job and earn some pocket money to spend. Can't wait for hols, all these studying crap are driving me nuts. grrrr. I think I'll feel the weirdness again, after exams. The freedom to do anything.. so weird really.
I watched the latest Lady Gaga's new video/song -Bad Romance the other day. How come she doesn't sound like herself? Sounds more hoarse or something. And how weird can her video get? It's uber eccentric, I would say, like a whacko, but interesting nevertheless. Go watch it if u haven't already done so. Britney's on her Australian tour now.. still wondering if I'm regretting not going to her concert which is Circus-themed. But still.. how to go and enjoy a concert when you have exams to worry about at the back of your head? Same time, last two years ago, Justin Timberlake was here and I couldn't go. Wanted to go for Neyo's concert but I bet it's sold out and I'm not sure it's already cancelled or not. Taylor Swift and Lady Gaga are gonna be here too next year.
I want to walk the streets, eat n shop, without a thing to worry about. haih.. can't wait. it's coming soon. I feel so bogged down by this whole exam crap. Freedom faster come come!
Okay.. First attempt blogging using phone internet. I'm apparently supposed to be studying now. Grrr... 12 more days to go n i noe no shit abt all my subjects' contents. Trying to cram all i can. Can't wait for all to be over n then i'll rejoice n 'literally' fly home. Sigh. Okie time to study again :(. My thumbs are hurting lol.
what i can say is that so many things happened for the past few weeks, and i've made a conclusion. this is just not my month!
so let me begin with the Darkest day of my life; 16th of October 2009. I think nothing worse can happen already because the worst has all happened that day, and come to think about it, the series of unfortunate things started exactly when the clock struck 12am to mark the start of 16th october 2009 till the day ended at 12am that night.
first, i got to know an ugly truth about a friend of mine which made me insomnia for the whole night. thanks to a friend who kept me company the whole night over the phone. i only slept for 3 hours of what seemed like an hour only, then i started my tutoring at 9. i messed up my tutoring a little; brain was malfunctioning and i guessed it was because of the lack of sleep.
then the next thing i know, i got into an accident when i was on my way out to meet up some friends to de-stress. yes, another accident [and the LAST one i Pray!] and this time it was undeniable my fault because i banged the car from behind. so Yeahs~ and it was me and my small sister again. i felt so terrible because it's the second time [and the Last time!!] i put my sister into this kind of situation; and this accident made my parents go gagaga as well, because i can actually claim those damages to my car and the car i banged, BUT because i agreed to the woman when she asked to settle it ourselves therefore we did not report to the police thus cannot claim from the insurance company. Dang~ $$$$$
and the 'darkness' did not end there, later that night my xps broke down and i couldnt go into the start page. how can anyone be so unluckyy eyhs. In just 24 hours i had to deal with so manyy 'Hits' ...
and then everything seemed to be going against me as well.. many lil annoying things... and the heart just couldnt feel better; didnt want to meet ppl so skipped saturday's lectures, all of a sudden i just wanted to be alone and all BUT thanks to a few friends who persuaded me to go on a party that night, and i felt so so much better; drank away most of the troubles that night. But just when i thought the badlucks has left, my xps came home without my Pictures from 2004 to 2009 Back-up'ed~ that feeling really sucks big time!! =S
gah!! I have to stay strong man.
and i just realised it's only 3 weeks away from the BIG exam. i really need to pull myself together now for the revision and all.. i dont want to get supp nor a fail in any of the subjects this time. i want to pass every subject and then enjoy my holiday with NO WORRIES like last semester.
ohwells, this is what everyone called 'life' I guess; bound to have ups and downs in it, what matters is how i am dealing with it.
I just realised I can be quite cranky and grumpy when all these are combined: lack of sleep, hunger, a really bad sore throat and backpain due to wrong sleeping posture. rawrrrrrrrr. What more, I've got the constant stress from this particular subject that's driving me nuts... I really don't think I'll ever be an inventor/creator of anything. Not even in my next few lives.
But anyway.. I'm feeling much happier now. Slept well and sore throat is going away. Hurray! Higher productivity I suppose.
Well, let's have a little update on life. The last few times I've blogged, I've mentioned going to labs every other day. That's still on-going. But it's all coming to an end soon, thank god. Semester's ending, really can’t wait. Even the exam timetable’s out...talk about time to stop procrastinating/going out/have fun and start some hard-core studying (not after all my assignments/projects are over and done with..sigh). Feeling home sick more and more these days. Miss home! Can’t wait to go back.
Last month or so, I’ve not been very studious. Kept going out for drinks, for food, for gatherings/parties. Tsk tsk. All these will be thrown out from now onwards except for some obligatory(seriously!) ones that I have to go.
Ah yes.. my birthday! Had multiple celebrations cause of different groups of people. However, I had a general birthday party at this bar/lounge called Marrakech two days earlier before my actual bday, just right at the start of the September 2-weeks break. It was at this Moroccon-style place, which reminds me a lot of Ali baba, magic lamps, Persian/Arabic stuff, shishas, belly dancers, fire-swallowers. That kind of stuff.. but no belly dancers/fire swallowers. To hire one, I’ll need to pay $250. What for pay that to see a belly dancer? Hehehe. Anyway that night was good.. though the music was a little disappointing. I prefer R&B n Hiphop but they were playing house/funk.But the house/funk was quite adaptable I would say. Then had birthday lunch and dinners with the other peeps on actual bday and next day. We also went to karaoke and managed to nab a free champagne by just saying there was a bday girl there that night. And the person didn’t even bother checking my ID to see if it’s really my birthday that day, how odd. Anyone could lie aye.
After that, it was a downward spiral for “fun”. Lab reports here and there, and after handing in one, there’s another 2 due soon. How “nice”! Pardon my sarcasm, just don’t wanna sound whiny. And then assignments and project came and joined in the “fun”. Haih.. so damn nice I know. So yea, these days it’s all work and no play for me ;) Must work hard now.. play later! Tata!
