Inspired.

so what have I been doing lately? so, some updates about me...

well, I'm in my 3rd year now in Uni, one more year to go and I'm graduating, hopefully. fingers crossed. So what's happening now? I cannot imagine that eight freaking months have passed and it's September 2010 already. This year has been a fun one; many happenings; both ups and downs until I did not have time to keep up to date to this blog. lol.

heh, so I managed to pass my semester 4 smoothly with no supplementary and during that 3 months holiday, I worked my *ss off with 2 jobs in June and got well paid. So as a reward to that, I sponsored myself to chill and relax at KK and Singapore with a bunch of awesome friends. I seriously had a great time there and after that trip, boy I just wished I was staying there.

Just to share with you guys, I enjoyed my June this year very much; handling 2 jobs and pretty much all my time was occupied that month. I had no time to spare for anything at all. However at the same time I learned quite a few things that was really worth it. I learned that money really don't come easily. You want more money, you will have to earn it, and it's not easy to earn it. There are bound to have sacrifices to it. I sacrificed my time :(

Yes, my time. I missed out a lot of valuable time with my family and friends. I still remember missing out a few dinner functions with my family and how left out I felt but I cant do anything. I got to be responsible with my work. Also, I missed out a few sports outing and also hangouts..... boo, but that's not so bad. What I really sacrificed was also my REST/SLEEP! I hardly have time to rest at all, and I thought I looked awful that time. Heh, can you imagine; working from 8am to 930pm everyday, well, except weekends but there was 2 weeks I had to work on Saturdays too. I finally understand why the working people insisted to treat their weekends well by enjoying themselves. From that month onwards, I always looked forward to weekend and treasured my weekend like a precious diamond. lol. Seriously.

So enough about my June.

Seriously what happened for the whole month of June has made me think a lot on what I really want for myself in the future. I came to realize that that is not what I want to do for a living in the next coming years. I don't want to be working my *** off for money. I met some new people recently and I thought what they said was right. I don't want to live my life controlled by my emotions, the two emotions; fear and desire. The fear of losing the job because if I lose my job, I wont get the money I want. On the other hand, the desire to get the things I want from money to make me go to work to get the money in order to get the things I want.

Sighs` so I'm still finding and trying ways to make sure I do not go into this cycle in the future and also to try go out from this cycle now, because I think that is exactly how I am feeling working my part time job now. There's actually nothing much I can do now because I am still quite dependent to my parents. So what I really can do now is to finish off my course in the Uni before I set my foot to another path, a path that I can actually be independent to my parents. [ahhh, Scary! lol ] Though I must admit I regret taking this path I'm walking now But since I've chosen this path, I will just continue on until the end before I see another junction. By that time, I will be sure to choose the right path :)

So as I was going to end this post just now, something happened... and I was suddenly inspired and wrote a short note. It was actually written in hope to wake someone up.. and yea, I thought I could share it here too.

''You never realized you have a nice family, you only care how nice or bad your friends treat you. You never realized how much your family has done for you, you only care what you can do for your friends. You never realized how worried your family can get when they can't reach you, you only care about how they do not trust You. You never realized no matter how big the argument you get with your family that in the end they will still treat you like the argument did not happened. What You have never realized doing to your family is that You always resent being told what to do. I really hope one day You will grow up and wake up to realize how blissful your life is, to have such wonderful people around you already. I also hope you will learn how to treasure those who loves you for just the way you are, and not those who try to change you to what you are becoming now.''

a quote to share :

have or not have or not have or not!?

你有没有 爱过我，有没有想过我， 有没有 有没有 也会有一点心动 的时候 但是说不出口 ♪

have la hor hor hor! Heeeeee

Our Equation!! I missed you.

this post is just going to be a soft opening eyh...

Yes, I'm coming back, to blog more after this post, yes I will.

I missed blogging, actually forgot how it feels to blog already;

the feeling of blogging and after blogging.

so I am going to blog soon! heee...

and oh Jasmine Yap! If you see this post, I missed you! talk to you soon okay! xx

My very eventful first week of uni

So, this post is gonna be pretty long. Time for me to rant and rant and rant and rant. It actually feels pretty good putting things down in words, exactly like a journal. Coz when I look back at these posts, I actually can remind myself of different phases of my life, which I definitely can't remember forever so clearly in my mind.

Day #1, Last Sunday

Switched room with housemate Siew Chien. Reason being that my sis came and lived with me and we needed the other bigger room. So, it was packing packing, cleaning, shifting, setting up the bed, the toilet stuff.. and then other smaller stuff gets relocated into the new room and placed in newly-organised cupboards and shelves. Putting things neatly at the right place took forever, it is still on-going. I just have too many things and I wanna put everything perfectly into the right places, not just anywhere and everywhere.

Day #2 Monday

Thank goodness, after days of waiting for my supp paper exam result, I finally was told by the lecturer that I passed. Whopeeee!

Day # 3 Tuesday

Sat on bed with laptop on one day and pondered upon my recent discovery. I discovered last year around Sept/Oct, that my left hip is jutting out far more than the other side. Googled "hip jutting out one side more than the other" and voila! I found something frightening. The whole Google search page shows one big word "Scoliosis". A girl asked the same question on Yahoo Answers! and the person who replied said "Have u been checked for scoliosis?" Went and research on scoliosis and got freaked out even more. Coz other symptoms matched my condition. Hip higher on one side, shoulder is one higher than the other, pants hemline might differ(one shorter, one longer). So off I go, immediately, to see the doctor. Told him, I think I have scoliosis. Measured my hip to ankle to see if I have one long and one short leg. Nope. Then pressed my spine from the neck down, feels straight. But he agrees that my hip does jut out on the left more. So, I was suggested to do an X-ray. So, off I go to the hospital to do an X-ray, just wanna get things done asap, and the x-ray place was closing around the time I left. phew. Now to just wait for the x-ray film to be sent to the doctor I saw previously

Day #3 Wednesday

Attended a friend(Ruwan)'s 21st birthday party. It was great, though it felt a bit boring. The theme of the party was white! White dresses everywhere that night, I was amazed how everyone could actually find something white and nice to wear coz they were ALL complaining about how hard it was to find white dress/clothes to wear and how it looks fat on them. hahah. It was a good night, I would say.

Day #4 Thursday

X-ray report out, went to see doctor. As soon as I walked on, he said "Jasmine, yes, you do have scoliosis I'm afraid to say". Woahhhh... I "Oh my god"-ed to the doctor. Then I saw my x-ray image of my spine on his computer. It was a freaking convex (c-shaped)to the right. The reason why my left hip is jutting out is because my hip is trying to compensate for the spine curving to the right. Damn.. bad news much. I really do feel disabled when I went home and read all the sufferings people go through with that. To further confirm what I have to do next, I have to go see an orthopedic specialist. Only the specialist can tell me how much the angle of my spine has curved off and to decide whether I have to exercise or wear a brace around my waist to straighten my spine. sighh.. Told my family and they kinda freaked out a little and advised me on what to do next. Another astonishing discovery: it now has become clear how come, all through my years of spectacle wearing(started in form 4) that my ears were one up and one down. And true enough, it's cause of the scoliosis. The ear that is lower down is the right side.. where my shoulder is lower too.

Day # 5 Friday

Went to submit my resume to the restaurant that my friend recommended me to work at cause she knows the boss. Got interviewed a little.. and was told to go back the next day for a trial.Got told that trials are $10 per hour. Awesome. The last time I went for trials, they didn't even pay me a single cent.

Day # 6 Saturday

Anticipated all day long for 5 pm. That's when my trial for work as waitress started. Don't even know if it's a good or bad thing for my back, standing for long hours and straining my back. Anyways, had to learn how to do the usual waitress duties like serving, taking orders, greeting customers, wiping tables, washing glasses. It was a good experience really. Always wanted to know how it feels to be behind, in the kitchen and how things work in there. That night, it was madness. Apparently, I was thrown right into the deep end on first day of trial wth. Coz there was this feast going on. Some rich Taiwanese/HK young adults were dining that night. A total of 22 people. They had like such yummilicious food, like lobster shashimi lou sang(which I was lucky enough to taste at the kitchen. LOL the boss was saying how I'm lucky coz I get to eat lobster on the first day. Usually the waiters there only get it like once a year), crabs, abalone, oysters, shellfish, and all other things. So yums..but too bad, I'm not the one eating, but the one serving. That brings me to another point. You know, it feels so different to serve and to be served, like completely, utterly different. When we're served at restaurants, we somehow have this superiority, like we're kings, we're being served and we look at waiters like servants. Whereas, when I was serving, I felt the total opposite. I felt so looked down upon for some weird reason. grrr.. weirdness. like I'm a servant. But oh well, a servant gets paid. Oh, also, it was damn hectic, was running up and down the stairs like mad, at one point, I was actually sweating. Then, I broke a glass. But anyway, at the end of the day, I was kinda overpaid. I got $60 working from 5-10.20 pm. I felt a bit bad that I'm taking money but not staying till the particular time I'm supposed to be paid till, that's 11 pm. So, I stayed on and washed glasses. Andddd..I got $3 tip, divided from the tip jar. I got to drink some longan dessert and some Coke. Furthermore, every time anyone works, there's gonna be a meal prepared by the chef. If you don't wanna eat it, you still have to take away. Chef gets angry if you don't and if you throw food..lol And we all are supposed to call him Sifu..haha funny.

Day #7 Sunday

Today was pretty motivated to wake up cause my friends made breakfast plans. But I only reached at 11 am, so I guess it's not breakfast anymore, more like brunch. After that, walked around the city a little. Oh my, all the running and walking in the restaurant yesterday was like a workout. I was aching all over today, like the kind I get after working out in the gym after a long time of not visiting the gym. Around 5, my generous friend, Jason took me to IKEA. Yay, time to get my new study desk, then had dinner. At home, I anxiously assembled the table and finally got to place all the things I had on the floor onto the table AT LAST. Felt so homely. Just realised that without a study table, life feels so incomplete. Was arching over on the floor or on the bed, when I was using the laptop for the past week. Really Bad for the back. Now, I'm sitting comfortably in a good sitting position, typing away. Bliss! And then set up my speakers, happy! I really prefer music from speakers rather than laptop, much clearer and there's a subwoofer. Oh, reason I had to buy a new table was cause my old one was old and wobbly whenever I rubbed something off using eraser on the table, it would shake badly, making all the things on the table rattle, damn annoying.

Anyway, super damn long entry!

I am so happy I'm finally settled into this room despite having lots to clear still. Too many unwanted old clothes, old electrical cables and wires, containers, etc... the list goes on.

Ta,

Jas

Persevere

I'm in uni now at this ungodly hour.. supposed to be studying but ended up surfing net like mad for hours, chatting to ppl ard here and there and then downloadings songs. Listening to 2 new Jay Chow songs, 'Chao ren bu hui fei' and 'wo de di pan' . Don't know why 'wo de di pan' is so freaking emo, listening to it makes me feel unnecessary emo too...it's such a sad song, makes me very gan dong and bei shang wth. My heart is like heavy.

Anyway..let's see. Update from the last time I blogged. Completely recovered, but recently kept sneezing and had to keep clearing my throat. Essay was over and done, didn't get a grade that I expected.. but oh well, just gotta do better for the exam. Mid-semester tests were done too.. didn't quite well. Hope I'm not on the road to hell again. Then.. exam timetable's out, having them on 9,15,23 & 24. And after that, planning to make a trip to Gold Coast or anywhere else during the one month hols. Main aim is to go do bungee jumping, something I wanna do since a long time ago. And zorbing too.. where they put you in a huge transparent ball and roll you down the hill.

Lately, I've become a bit of a shopaholic, kept going to buy clothes -_-" And trying to look for really thick tights for winter but can't find any good ones.

Watched Ip Man 2 and Alice in Wonderland. Ip Man 2 was super awesome! Loved Donnie Yen, he's damn cool. My cousins tell me he's like the new Jackie Chan or Jet Li. Alice In Wonderland was just so-so.. not bad I guess, very quirky though.

Just couldn't figure out why I'm so unacceptable to certain things. I mean I can accept it if it was connected to someone I don't know at all.. but when it's with someone close, or related to someone close, I just feel so annoyed and disgusted. grrrr.. what's wrong with me? I know I shouldn't be bothered by other people's actions, but hey, some things are just un-ethical and not the norm in the society I was brought up in. Maybe I'm closed-minded? Maybe I'm innocent and ignorant to all things out there that's happening currently in the other dark and wicked world?

My Holiday

..STARTED an hour ago! woots! 3months AWAY from UNIVERSITY life.

I'm too happy for words.

Just want to announce and share my happiness here.

and Oh, I'm in Love with HTC DESIRE. should i get it? any reviews about it? but anyhoots I think I'm going to get it soon, I hope.

also, I cant wait to go singapore/kk in July already.

I have got a feeling now, a feeling that this holiday would be GREAT! hee...

status : HUA HEE until............... xD

-signing off-

GOD HEARD ME!

YES, HE DID!

I was tweeting in the morning around 11ish; "Dear god, please hear my prayers today.....

today I'd my MS3424 Company Accounting paper and believe me, the questions I revised and looked through all looked as complicated as you can think of. The calculations to arrive to that one value and to complete that ONE question can take up to more than 4hours. Serious. Like what kaiping said, the questions are ''not for human to do" and he is considered a very good in accounting student ler, what more to expect from me.

so I was praying I could pass this course with an E, and when I reached UBD this morning, I was told by fawei that I would need to score just 10marks to pass the paper because I scored 30/40 for my coursework and the passing mark for this course is 40? hee... and it was inside the exam hall that I got to know I got to score at least 28 over that 100marks paper to pass with an E. So so conclusions..... I've scored a definite 15marks already, thanks to the teacher who suddenly stood beside me and told me how to do a question I KNEW how to do BUT FORGOT how to do; the mind was suddenly blocked temporarily...

so my point here is, without the 15marks, it's quite impossible that I can pass, unless Miracle; the teacher decided to give 30marks a Pass, which is quite impossible? if so then I score a zero mark also can pass already. LOL!

so another point here is, He answered my prayer! Dear God! Thank You! Thank You So much! *hearts*

Well, I still have 2 more papers; 7days to go. Cant wait, cant wait... cant wait to end this exam soon!!

Shenny Tang!! You can do this!! XD

Exams!

yes, it's the season again; Exam season, and so group study here and there. [*eeks, mosquitoes under my table!!!!!]

ok, so had my first paper last monday and it was not so bad. I dont think i can get an A, but a B or a C is a definete? hee.. I hope, but but.. tomorrow's paper; statistic, I hope for an E, seriously. My hopes are not high, only an E or else I dont know what more I can do.

I still regret why did I took up major in Maths; maths is just not my thing. sighs! anyhoots, like what my teacher said, since I'v been 'trapped in this tiger's mouth' already, why not just fight with it to get out of the mouth instead of hiding inside waiting for it to open its mouth to escape, which is quite impossible; rare chance.

so argh. im stress now again. lol! supposed to be revising, but i suddenly got this mood to blog about my feelings so here goes. Im stress im stress im stress NOT.

i seriously, need a lot of lucks!!