Blogging in autumn time

My gosh, how long have I not blogged man? Since October! I skipped abt 3-4 months of blogging.. hehe, all thanks to Facebook, for taking blogging out of a lot of peoples' lives. I even stopped reading blogs altogether.

Sigh.. Right now I can't sleep. That's why I'm blogging. Slept on the plane for about six hours during midnight(the right time to sleep). But it was so uncomfortable sleeping in a sitting position, plus when I arrived, two other planes arrived at the same time.. so the immigration queue was the longest I've ever been in any immigration queues in my life.. took more than 1.5 hours just to get out of the airport. sheesh.. when I reached home, I was tired as hell already. So I slept for abt 4-5 hours in the noon, then for about 4 hours during the night. So now I can't sleep! grrrrr..Am supposed to wake up at a normal time tomorrow, for class and to settle A LOT OF THINGS like unpacking, renewing student visa, renewing student card, lectures, project briefings, upgrading to a new phone, grocery shopping, etc etc..

Well, I was actually intending to blog about what has happened over the past few months. SO much has happened, I dun even know how to and where to start.

hmmmm...




maybe another time..


Now, for some resolutions:

1) Must study hard! Most importantly, Start Early.. no slacking.. Try to be as interested as possible in subjects, so that it quickens studying(hate how when I try to start my engine for studying, I totally hate the subject contents, keep resisting reading even a page.. but once it starts, I get a little interested, and then only can I keep going, faster and faster)

2) Allocate time for these: series(maybe 1 or 2 episodes a day), exercise, reading storybooks(just impulse bought 4 books from KLIA's MPH). I realise I never allocated time for movies/series. I just dun bother usually. I only watch shows certain times in a year, not regularly. Even listening to songs, I get so lazy, I dun bother listening to them, as in I don't bother turning on my playlist at all.

3) Cook more!

4) Have a better sleep and wake up time. Try to be as regular as possible. I hate it when some days I sleep longer into the noon and can't sleep earlier during the night. sigh..


Ok, that's about it.

I'm so missing my Brunei routine. No studying, no cooking, no set time to wake up and sleep, do watever u want.. I missssssssss. And I'm missing everyone in Brunei! I dunno why I just instantly feel sad and bogged down by things I have to do here when I reach Melbourne. Guess that's reality for you.. study/work times can never compare to holiday times.

pre-exam Stress.

It has always, always been like this. A week or two before the exam confirm cant help to procrastinate, again and again and heh, I can already imagine myself saying 'I wished I have more time' a day before the exam.

SIGHS! buckle up already, Shenny Tang! This semester is crazy; with 6maths and 1 accounting course, I doubt... but I'm going to prove myself wrong, again. I'm definetely going to score.

My objective is to get 2As', 3Bs', 1C and 1D but Dear God, if you think my request is a bit too much then a pass will do. seriously. amitabha.

hmm, I don't think anyone is reading this bloggie, except for the Bloggers eyhs? so it's like I blog for myself to read, haha.. but Jasmine Yap, if you see this, JIAYOU JIAYOU JIAYOU yess!! We can do it aite! hehe, I see you soon!! xoxo

Blogging in springtime

Hello to the few readers out there,

Really dunno why I just don't feel like blogging anymore these days. I'm so lazy. I'm so lazy to even upload photos on Facebook.

Updates:

Have been working for about 2 months now, waitressing. I'm definitely feeling more comfortable now, no more anxiety issues I used to deal with, before I went in the first few times. Have already broken a total of 1 water glass and 3 wine glasses and not proud of it and my boss is just too nice to not charge me for it. Have been well fed by the chef, some days I work during lunch hours(usually do dinner times), I get my lunch. But before I leave to go home, the chef made me take back a tapao of that night's dinner as well, how nice!

Tim Burton's Exhibition displays the works of the director behind most of Johnny Depp's movies like Charlie and the chocolate factory, Sweeney Todd, Alice in Wonderland, Edward Scissorhands, Tim Burton. Went there with Amanda one Sunday. His works are really quirky and weird to the max. Looking at them actually give me the creeps at how someone can think/draw with so much eccentricity. Weird shit.

Boring uni stuff happens.. as usual. But I shouldn't be complaining, only doing three subjects this semester, so I'm relatively more free compared to the normal workload of 4 subjects.

Finally gotten around to using a Blackberry. Just thought the BBMessenger and Whatsapp are quite convenient as u can chat with people unlimitedly. And the ability to receive instant email notifications in my phone are both good and bad. Good, cause if there's any important announcement in my uni email gets sent in, I would know about it instantly or if someone tags some bleargh picture of me in Facebook, I'd know. Bad, because sometimes it's so annoying! A simple comment on my Fb page would send a beep/blink on my phone. And if 10 other comments continue on that same initial comment, my phone won't stop bugging me. Case in point: my birthday. Super lots of beeping on my phone coz of the FB greetings, I wanna hide it under a pillow. But then again, I'd know instantly who greeted me. Oh well, could have switched the blinking/sound off, but didn't.

Went to my first uni ball ever. Loved the venue. I wore a dress that resembled a wedding gown according to a lot of people including myself.. But I still like it. hahah, like what the salesgirl said, makes me feel like a princess. And I've always wanted to wear a long dress, finally gotten around to wearing one. Yay!

OOh, and I won a $10 Sushi shop voucher for lucky draw. haha, already used it yesterday. And also, the organisers of the ball got us free entrance to Seven, the afterparty club venue, we just had to show our ball tickets.

The birthday - Really didn't feel like celebrating this year. So, just had lunch with Amanda and dinner with friends.

Went to Tasmania for 4 days, 3 nights. Apparently Tasmania is supposed to be boring, lots of sight-seeing and that's about it. But lucky, we did more adventurous stuff and that took the boring factor out for us. The day we arrived, we all went to a honey farm, but it's more like just a honey shop.






Then after dat, we went to explore caves, with a tour guide of course. The stalactites and rock formations were quite pretty and it kept reminding me of what Geography taught many years ago.




Day 2, we went to Cradle Mountain for hiking. Love the scenery.. so beautiful.

* Actually getting lazier to upload photos here alrdy, so stay tuned in FB for more pics.

Day 3, white water rafting & ghost tour. Ghost tour freaked me out so badly, apparently we went into a prison area, it's a really big piece of land with lots of old buildings that look like castles, this whole place used to a convict prison for about 170 years ago. And one of the houses there was supposedly the 2nd most haunted house in Australia and the guide made us go into it and stayed in one of the rooms while he explained all the sounds and sightings people have experienced in there. Goodness..so scary. Like he said a grumpy old man ghost is always seen near the window there and then pointed his torch at that direction wth. Then the guide always brought us to a particular area where people used to see ghosts, hear footsteps, feel cold, all those things u get when a ghost is near u.

So anyways, Day 4 explored Hobart city(capital of Tasmania), went to the Salamanca Market where they sell handicrafts, old books, food, jewelleries, etc then off to the airport and back to Melbourne.

So back to Melbourne, back to study. Timetable just came out, exam ends on 19th Nov, earlier than I expected. So, dat's great, can relax earlier, but that also means I have to start studying, like now! Which is what I'm trying to do daily. Sigh, really need to get good grades.

BREAKTHROUGH!

Yes, I seriously need a breakthrough, in every aspect of my life. kinda feel so sick about everything around me now... my life; my studies, this and that and all... everything is just so.. plain and stale and sad, and Boring!

and I cant seem to get over with something that is already over. SHENNY! Get Over With It!

I need a path, a new route.. to a whole new me! GAH! I just feel so negative now... about everything! What is wrong with me..

Inspired.

so what have I been doing lately? so, some updates about me...

well, I'm in my 3rd year now in Uni, one more year to go and I'm graduating, hopefully. fingers crossed. So what's happening now? I cannot imagine that eight freaking months have passed and it's September 2010 already. This year has been a fun one; many happenings; both ups and downs until I did not have time to keep up to date to this blog. lol.

heh, so I managed to pass my semester 4 smoothly with no supplementary and during that 3 months holiday, I worked my *ss off with 2 jobs in June and got well paid. So as a reward to that, I sponsored myself to chill and relax at KK and Singapore with a bunch of awesome friends. I seriously had a great time there and after that trip, boy I just wished I was staying there.

Just to share with you guys, I enjoyed my June this year very much; handling 2 jobs and pretty much all my time was occupied that month. I had no time to spare for anything at all. However at the same time I learned quite a few things that was really worth it. I learned that money really don't come easily. You want more money, you will have to earn it, and it's not easy to earn it. There are bound to have sacrifices to it. I sacrificed my time :(

Yes, my time. I missed out a lot of valuable time with my family and friends. I still remember missing out a few dinner functions with my family and how left out I felt but I cant do anything. I got to be responsible with my work. Also, I missed out a few sports outing and also hangouts..... boo, but that's not so bad. What I really sacrificed was also my REST/SLEEP! I hardly have time to rest at all, and I thought I looked awful that time. Heh, can you imagine; working from 8am to 930pm everyday, well, except weekends but there was 2 weeks I had to work on Saturdays too. I finally understand why the working people insisted to treat their weekends well by enjoying themselves. From that month onwards, I always looked forward to weekend and treasured my weekend like a precious diamond. lol. Seriously.

So enough about my June.

Seriously what happened for the whole month of June has made me think a lot on what I really want for myself in the future. I came to realize that that is not what I want to do for a living in the next coming years. I don't want to be working my *** off for money. I met some new people recently and I thought what they said was right. I don't want to live my life controlled by my emotions, the two emotions; fear and desire. The fear of losing the job because if I lose my job, I wont get the money I want. On the other hand, the desire to get the things I want from money to make me go to work to get the money in order to get the things I want.

Sighs` so I'm still finding and trying ways to make sure I do not go into this cycle in the future and also to try go out from this cycle now, because I think that is exactly how I am feeling working my part time job now. There's actually nothing much I can do now because I am still quite dependent to my parents. So what I really can do now is to finish off my course in the Uni before I set my foot to another path, a path that I can actually be independent to my parents. [ahhh, Scary! lol ] Though I must admit I regret taking this path I'm walking now But since I've chosen this path, I will just continue on until the end before I see another junction. By that time, I will be sure to choose the right path :)

So as I was going to end this post just now, something happened... and I was suddenly inspired and wrote a short note. It was actually written in hope to wake someone up.. and yea, I thought I could share it here too.

''You never realized you have a nice family, you only care how nice or bad your friends treat you. You never realized how much your family has done for you, you only care what you can do for your friends. You never realized how worried your family can get when they can't reach you, you only care about how they do not trust You. You never realized no matter how big the argument you get with your family that in the end they will still treat you like the argument did not happened. What You have never realized doing to your family is that You always resent being told what to do. I really hope one day You will grow up and wake up to realize how blissful your life is, to have such wonderful people around you already. I also hope you will learn how to treasure those who loves you for just the way you are, and not those who try to change you to what you are becoming now.''

a quote to share :

have or not have or not have or not!?

你有没有 爱过我，有没有想过我， 有没有 有没有 也会有一点心动 的时候 但是说不出口 ♪

have la hor hor hor! Heeeeee

Our Equation!! I missed you.

this post is just going to be a soft opening eyh...

Yes, I'm coming back, to blog more after this post, yes I will.

I missed blogging, actually forgot how it feels to blog already;

the feeling of blogging and after blogging.

so I am going to blog soon! heee...

and oh Jasmine Yap! If you see this post, I missed you! talk to you soon okay! xx

My very eventful first week of uni

So, this post is gonna be pretty long. Time for me to rant and rant and rant and rant. It actually feels pretty good putting things down in words, exactly like a journal. Coz when I look back at these posts, I actually can remind myself of different phases of my life, which I definitely can't remember forever so clearly in my mind.

Day #1, Last Sunday

Switched room with housemate Siew Chien. Reason being that my sis came and lived with me and we needed the other bigger room. So, it was packing packing, cleaning, shifting, setting up the bed, the toilet stuff.. and then other smaller stuff gets relocated into the new room and placed in newly-organised cupboards and shelves. Putting things neatly at the right place took forever, it is still on-going. I just have too many things and I wanna put everything perfectly into the right places, not just anywhere and everywhere.

Day #2 Monday

Thank goodness, after days of waiting for my supp paper exam result, I finally was told by the lecturer that I passed. Whopeeee!

Day # 3 Tuesday

Sat on bed with laptop on one day and pondered upon my recent discovery. I discovered last year around Sept/Oct, that my left hip is jutting out far more than the other side. Googled "hip jutting out one side more than the other" and voila! I found something frightening. The whole Google search page shows one big word "Scoliosis". A girl asked the same question on Yahoo Answers! and the person who replied said "Have u been checked for scoliosis?" Went and research on scoliosis and got freaked out even more. Coz other symptoms matched my condition. Hip higher on one side, shoulder is one higher than the other, pants hemline might differ(one shorter, one longer). So off I go, immediately, to see the doctor. Told him, I think I have scoliosis. Measured my hip to ankle to see if I have one long and one short leg. Nope. Then pressed my spine from the neck down, feels straight. But he agrees that my hip does jut out on the left more. So, I was suggested to do an X-ray. So, off I go to the hospital to do an X-ray, just wanna get things done asap, and the x-ray place was closing around the time I left. phew. Now to just wait for the x-ray film to be sent to the doctor I saw previously

Day #3 Wednesday

Attended a friend(Ruwan)'s 21st birthday party. It was great, though it felt a bit boring. The theme of the party was white! White dresses everywhere that night, I was amazed how everyone could actually find something white and nice to wear coz they were ALL complaining about how hard it was to find white dress/clothes to wear and how it looks fat on them. hahah. It was a good night, I would say.

Day #4 Thursday

X-ray report out, went to see doctor. As soon as I walked on, he said "Jasmine, yes, you do have scoliosis I'm afraid to say". Woahhhh... I "Oh my god"-ed to the doctor. Then I saw my x-ray image of my spine on his computer. It was a freaking convex (c-shaped)to the right. The reason why my left hip is jutting out is because my hip is trying to compensate for the spine curving to the right. Damn.. bad news much. I really do feel disabled when I went home and read all the sufferings people go through with that. To further confirm what I have to do next, I have to go see an orthopedic specialist. Only the specialist can tell me how much the angle of my spine has curved off and to decide whether I have to exercise or wear a brace around my waist to straighten my spine. sighh.. Told my family and they kinda freaked out a little and advised me on what to do next. Another astonishing discovery: it now has become clear how come, all through my years of spectacle wearing(started in form 4) that my ears were one up and one down. And true enough, it's cause of the scoliosis. The ear that is lower down is the right side.. where my shoulder is lower too.

Day # 5 Friday

Went to submit my resume to the restaurant that my friend recommended me to work at cause she knows the boss. Got interviewed a little.. and was told to go back the next day for a trial.Got told that trials are $10 per hour. Awesome. The last time I went for trials, they didn't even pay me a single cent.

Day # 6 Saturday

Anticipated all day long for 5 pm. That's when my trial for work as waitress started. Don't even know if it's a good or bad thing for my back, standing for long hours and straining my back. Anyways, had to learn how to do the usual waitress duties like serving, taking orders, greeting customers, wiping tables, washing glasses. It was a good experience really. Always wanted to know how it feels to be behind, in the kitchen and how things work in there. That night, it was madness. Apparently, I was thrown right into the deep end on first day of trial wth. Coz there was this feast going on. Some rich Taiwanese/HK young adults were dining that night. A total of 22 people. They had like such yummilicious food, like lobster shashimi lou sang(which I was lucky enough to taste at the kitchen. LOL the boss was saying how I'm lucky coz I get to eat lobster on the first day. Usually the waiters there only get it like once a year), crabs, abalone, oysters, shellfish, and all other things. So yums..but too bad, I'm not the one eating, but the one serving. That brings me to another point. You know, it feels so different to serve and to be served, like completely, utterly different. When we're served at restaurants, we somehow have this superiority, like we're kings, we're being served and we look at waiters like servants. Whereas, when I was serving, I felt the total opposite. I felt so looked down upon for some weird reason. grrr.. weirdness. like I'm a servant. But oh well, a servant gets paid. Oh, also, it was damn hectic, was running up and down the stairs like mad, at one point, I was actually sweating. Then, I broke a glass. But anyway, at the end of the day, I was kinda overpaid. I got $60 working from 5-10.20 pm. I felt a bit bad that I'm taking money but not staying till the particular time I'm supposed to be paid till, that's 11 pm. So, I stayed on and washed glasses. Andddd..I got $3 tip, divided from the tip jar. I got to drink some longan dessert and some Coke. Furthermore, every time anyone works, there's gonna be a meal prepared by the chef. If you don't wanna eat it, you still have to take away. Chef gets angry if you don't and if you throw food..lol And we all are supposed to call him Sifu..haha funny.

Day #7 Sunday

Today was pretty motivated to wake up cause my friends made breakfast plans. But I only reached at 11 am, so I guess it's not breakfast anymore, more like brunch. After that, walked around the city a little. Oh my, all the running and walking in the restaurant yesterday was like a workout. I was aching all over today, like the kind I get after working out in the gym after a long time of not visiting the gym. Around 5, my generous friend, Jason took me to IKEA. Yay, time to get my new study desk, then had dinner. At home, I anxiously assembled the table and finally got to place all the things I had on the floor onto the table AT LAST. Felt so homely. Just realised that without a study table, life feels so incomplete. Was arching over on the floor or on the bed, when I was using the laptop for the past week. Really Bad for the back. Now, I'm sitting comfortably in a good sitting position, typing away. Bliss! And then set up my speakers, happy! I really prefer music from speakers rather than laptop, much clearer and there's a subwoofer. Oh, reason I had to buy a new table was cause my old one was old and wobbly whenever I rubbed something off using eraser on the table, it would shake badly, making all the things on the table rattle, damn annoying.

Anyway, super damn long entry!

I am so happy I'm finally settled into this room despite having lots to clear still. Too many unwanted old clothes, old electrical cables and wires, containers, etc... the list goes on.

Ta,

Jas