well, I'm in my 3rd year now in Uni, one more year to go and I'm graduating, hopefully. fingers crossed. So what's happening now? I cannot imagine that eight freaking months have passed and it's September 2010 already. This year has been a fun one; many happenings; both ups and downs until I did not have time to keep up to date to this blog. lol.
heh, so I managed to pass my semester 4 smoothly with no supplementary and during that 3 months holiday, I worked my *ss off with 2 jobs in June and got well paid. So as a reward to that, I sponsored myself to chill and relax at KK and Singapore with a bunch of awesome friends. I seriously had a great time there and after that trip, boy I just wished I was staying there.
Just to share with you guys, I enjoyed my June this year very much; handling 2 jobs and pretty much all my time was occupied that month. I had no time to spare for anything at all. However at the same time I learned quite a few things that was really worth it. I learned that money really don't come easily. You want more money, you will have to earn it, and it's not easy to earn it. There are bound to have sacrifices to it. I sacrificed my time :(
Yes, my time. I missed out a lot of valuable time with my family and friends. I still remember missing out a few dinner functions with my family and how left out I felt but I cant do anything. I got to be responsible with my work. Also, I missed out a few sports outing and also hangouts..... boo, but that's not so bad. What I really sacrificed was also my REST/SLEEP! I hardly have time to rest at all, and I thought I looked awful that time. Heh, can you imagine; working from 8am to 930pm everyday, well, except weekends but there was 2 weeks I had to work on Saturdays too. I finally understand why the working people insisted to treat their weekends well by enjoying themselves. From that month onwards, I always looked forward to weekend and treasured my weekend like a precious diamond. lol. Seriously.
So enough about my June.
Seriously what happened for the whole month of June has made me think a lot on what I really want for myself in the future. I came to realize that that is not what I want to do for a living in the next coming years. I don't want to be working my *** off for money. I met some new people recently and I thought what they said was right. I don't want to live my life controlled by my emotions, the two emotions; fear and desire. The fear of losing the job because if I lose my job, I wont get the money I want. On the other hand, the desire to get the things I want from money to make me go to work to get the money in order to get the things I want.
Sighs` so I'm still finding and trying ways to make sure I do not go into this cycle in the future and also to try go out from this cycle now, because I think that is exactly how I am feeling working my part time job now. There's actually nothing much I can do now because I am still quite dependent to my parents. So what I really can do now is to finish off my course in the Uni before I set my foot to another path, a path that I can actually be independent to my parents. [ahhh, Scary! lol ] Though I must admit I regret taking this path I'm walking now But since I've chosen this path, I will just continue on until the end before I see another junction. By that time, I will be sure to choose the right path :)
So as I was going to end this post just now, something happened... and I was suddenly inspired and wrote a short note. It was actually written in hope to wake someone up.. and yea, I thought I could share it here too.
''You never realized you have a nice family, you only care how nice or bad your friends treat you. You never realized how much your family has done for you, you only care what you can do for your friends. You never realized how worried your family can get when they can't reach you, you only care about how they do not trust You. You never realized no matter how big the argument you get with your family that in the end they will still treat you like the argument did not happened. What You have never realized doing to your family is that You always resent being told what to do. I really hope one day You will grow up and wake up to realize how blissful your life is, to have such wonderful people around you already. I also hope you will learn how to treasure those who loves you for just the way you are, and not those who try to change you to what you are becoming now.''
a quote to share :
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