Monday, July 04, 2011

i've learnt..

that there are 3 things we cant recover in life: the WORD after its said, the MOMENT after its missed, and the TIME after its gone..

Friday, July 01, 2011

it's a new month, new beginning?

half a year has gone, and July is here! a new month, a new beginning for me? I'd say the first half of 2011 was full of ups and downs for me. people come and go in my life and things happened... but not regretting any bit of it as they are all my choice. all I can say is, everything is fated? heh.. I sound so... old, and wise. lol!!

now I have a few resolutions for July! hehe..
1. complete my Teaching Practice perfectly and get a good grade out of it. [ last day, 14th July. Counting down days now. hehe ]
2. learn how to swim!
3. learn how to save money; budget budget everything.
4. budget for singapore trip already!
5. be the better person of myself now :))

guess this is it. still more, but i cant recall them now. ohwells, it's 2am in the morning now. the brain is already half asleep. so goodnights people. the chickens are singing already..... zz

Thursday, June 23, 2011

问世间情为何物

dear all, it's been a while since i've updated here. it's almost beginning to be like as if i'm not part of it hehehee *paiseh*

today i feel like ranting so i shall.

i want to know why people always get frustrated over 儿女私情 (that's directly translated as men-women-private-passion (sounds funny) i.e. love and relationships for those of you who lack education in chinese), because right now, i am frustrated.

history seems to repeat itself, and one look upon the mirror, i realise i have once again turned into the kind of girl i am NOT. if this is what love makes you do/ turns you into, then i don't want to be in love, because this kind of love makes me lost in confusion and i no longer behave like who i truly am, it's toxic love.

and then again i think about the one person whom i was always myself with. but this one person breaks my heart into pieces, not because of typical misgivings but simply because he's too selfish to invest in a relationship. here, you can argue that it's not worth waiting for someone who may never turn back to you. reminds me of that ironic statement "a person worth crying for will never make you cry" or something like that. so technically a person worth waiting for shouldn't make me wait??

what is wrong with this world???

time flies...

it's been almost a month plus now since I work, plus the 2 weeks holidays. HEE, and if I count down the days to leave, it's like.....3 weeks left? ohno, I havent done my video teaching yet, and my research and analysis for one of my next semester's module assignment... and another report writing for Another module.. gah! Uni really sucks~ ohwells....

so how's it been like teaching in the school? I'd say Im enjoying every bit now.. though some of my kids are really ... uncontrollable but they are adorable at times too. HEH.. but Im still doubting myself.. if this is what Im going to do for the rest of my life...NAH~ I wana be my own boss~~ have my own time~~ do my own things~~ heehe...

so I just got back from a relief class.. now slacking in the staffroom, doing nothing because I have basically prepared most of the lesson for this week. WHEE XD
and it's sunshowering now outside. crazy weather.

so this is my latest updates. more to come. ciao :)



Saturday, May 28, 2011

Teaching Practice..

so I'm doing my teaching practice now at a school nearby my home. It is like an attachment thing so THERE GOES MY ''SUMMER 3MONTHS'' HOLIDAY! huhuhu.. so the teaching practice has been so far so good. The school I was assigned to is very near to my house and this is actually good because I pretty much do not need to rush to work and it takes only around 5 minutes to reach home from work. Another good thing that I should be glad about this tp is that I am teaching in the afternoon session so there is really no need for me to wake up early for work.. well everything is good BUT, but but but.... now that I think.. this is my first tp and I have another tp next yr; it is quite impossible that I'l be sent to the same school to do my 2nd TP so I'm pretty much upset now, because I have find myself slowly liking this school, and its conveniency to me... I want to maybe teach here in the future... BLEHS.

So recalling back, on the first day during the briefing, I was actually quite down when I know I am going to be in the afternoon session, because I was hoping that I could have my afternoon free to do whatever I want; gym, shop, and yea.. But this is the end of the second week already and it hasnt been too bad. I started teaching already on the second day because the classes I was given to, they were going to start a new topic and the subject teacher suggested that it'd be better if i start the new topic myself..so I started teaching on the 2nd day of my work. Overall, things were okay until the second week.

A relief teacher came to report for work and she was going to relief the two classes I was given to because the teacher in charge of the classes was going to take maternity leave so so so they decided to give me another two new classes...... omg I feel like I'm reporting... ohwells, so summary is I was given two new classes and so far I'm enjoying it eventhough there are a few very very talkative students. pfft..... oh, and I had a surprise visit by my supervisor yesterday to observe my class. I was not prepared because I thought I didnt have to teach that class yet; wrong information given by my CT but Im glad that I handled that class well despite no preparation. hehehe, and I got a pretty average grade from my supervisor.

so what am I doing now.... nothing in the staffroom, listening to the radio's songs.. and blogging here... colleagues are talking about their classes.. comparing students' answers... time is ticking, tick tock tick tock....

recently my feelings has been Up and Down but I sure hope there will be no more Down because I don't want to go through that kind of feelings anymore. I just hope all will end well for me. I pray, because all I ever wanted is just to.....

Monday, May 16, 2011

eff my curiousity..

i was fine, i was happy. then out of nowhere my curiousity brings me there... flooding my mind, blurring my vision. there was that familiar ache again. there was the tightness in my chest, the lump in my throat. i hate this feeling, i hate everything about this.

curiousity + insecurities = heartbreak. WHEE!

SAD!

Hehe, Shen, this blog is turning emo! Why we both so emo one? sigh

I dunno why I should be emo. I mean I know students who are like me, taking same exact subjects. But I guarantee you they are not feeling emo like me. I am so helpless.. I feel like time is against me badly. I feel like it's worst that I'm not a very bright student and I would usually take a much LONGER time to understand things generally, I mean to understand anything at all from the course materials. So that means, time again is pushing against me since I'm so slow.

Every day these days, when I wake up, I feel like crap. Haven't felt like that for so long. It's like everyday is a bad day. Every day I get up, the first thing I think of is not oh how's the weather today? or ok so what do I do today, or AH a brand new day. It's actually, shit, I'm back to reality. Coz when I get up, I always transit from dream to reality. There's not one day that the dream is worst than reality. I feel angry that I actually got up, I feel sad that I'm back to this awful real world, I wish I didn't have to get up to face all these.

I don't know if it's because of this research project or what. It's supposed to be around 6 weeks to complete. Well, supposed to research on it all the while and then this Friday is the due date. But what have my partner and I been doing? I dunno, we slacked till last Friday thinking we could do it. But now, seeing how difficult it is to research mathematical models of synchronous generators, I think it's almost impossible! Like seriously, where is there enough time, what we read we don't even get it right away, even my friend who tried to help said we're dead meat. The stuff is deep, it would take weeks to actually understand everything. Now, we practically have nothing to submit. it's 20% of the whole subject, which is damn alot. Considering I've wanted to count on this subject to get my honors grade up. Sigh.. never felt much crappier than this before.

On top of this research project, there's a whole 5 things lined up to be done for another half a month. Each, highly time-consuming, not having enough time to be done adequately. Sigh.. I never went out or have any "weekends" since the Easter break. That 's around 2 weeks already. And for the next 2 weeks no weekends again. Then after that it's study break. why would I use any of my precious study break days to go out anyway? So that means after exams, then only I can actually go out for real. And that's after 5 weeks from now... then only I can actually go out and have real weekends. What a life I have really! I don't even have a life anymore.

Maybe it's my own problem. I'm not good at balancing things in life I guess. Coz if others are doing worst and much more than me with less time don't complain, then I'm quite ridiculous. They take it lightly. I see it in some of my friends, it just doesn't look too bad. But I'm complaining here about everything coz of my poor time-management skills. I wish I could take it easily and don't fret so much.

Sunday, May 08, 2011



why DOES it have to be todayyyyy.... i feel like tearing open my heart now to know why is it feeling this way.. i should have known better than anyone else, i should have got used to this already. why do i have to feel this way still....

this sudden feeling inside...

to be honest, i'm not always as confident as i might seem to be. there are many nights and many days when all i want is to be held and cared... sometimes i dont want to talk about what is bothering me. sometimes, all i want is just a hug, someone who will let me cry and be there for me when i need to express that feelings deep inside me...

i wear my heart on my sleeve but im not naive. i know what it feels like to be completely broken and i am familiar with what it means to be hurt. i knw what it's like to see something funny and not laugh. i've been taken advantage of and my feelings have often been disregarded one or too many times before... BUT

i still believe that all people are good at heart.. and THEY are still worth my trust..


Sooo... nahhh, not goin to bother so muchhhhh and....




p.s. inspired by a post i read. lol, no i'm not emo, maybe just stressed ;)

Thursday, May 05, 2011

Grrrrrrrrrrr

Guess why I'm blogging? COZ I'M STRESSED OUTTTTT~~~~

yes, it has become routine for me to only have a super super super strong urge to blog when I am frustrated or annoyed or angry. Other little times I blog coz I want to try to keep myself reminded(in future) to see what I've been up to.

SIGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!

The ages-old question. Why am I doing engineering?!
I have a love-hate relationship with it. Sometimes I hate it to the core. Sometimes I tolerate and say it's ok, coz sometimes when I really do study for exams, it's a bit better, I dun feel like crap coz I understand things.

BUT you know what? Engineering's not all about study for exams!
The other aspects of it, I hate hate hate hate so much.

I HATE MATLAB! I hate programming. I am so weak at it, I sometimes feel like dying(so dramatic I know but really). I actually cry and sulk because I cannot program and hence, I cannot do my labs. And what's worst, my upcoming research projects, previous, current and upcoming labs, final year projects ALL need programming. It's like supposed to be embedded knowledge in engineering world. GRRRRRRRRRRRR I don't have the flair for it, damn it!

I HATE LABS when I have to fiddle with wires/equipments coz I dun know shit! And What's worst my final year project, we're supposed to build stuff, wire things, get involved with chips and PCB boards... ahhh kill me already. I really don't like these at all. And my final year project group, we are so lagging behind everyone else. Ppl have already started building stuff and we've got nothing yet. Even if I wanted to do something, I have no idea how to wire stuff. And the internet does not really teach you step-by-step what you need to know. You have to dig info from all corners of the internet and piece them one by one..

I HATE RESEARCH.. when I research for things engineering-related, there's like a million and one different, varying answers. And to understand one page of whatever some super-smart engineer student/super expert wrote is so HARD! They talk like computer/machine language.. not layman's terms at all.

I HATE PRESENTATIONS.. I suck at public speaking. I stammer, I slur on my words. And I have two coming up. And to talk about engineering stuff.. omg. I would try my best to practise and rehearse. BUT THEN, that's not the hard part! the hard part is that I will be BOMBARDED questions from the audience. And to answer them is impossible, I just can't think quickly engineering-wise. sigh..

I know I am very naive to think that I could just acquire an Engineering degree just by studying for exams. But hey, they still constitute a majority of the marks. But then again, the exams are not easy. I fear so much of the exams.. coz they are NEVER EVER easy. They are there to grill the hell out of you.

Now, I'm stuck doing multiple lab reports, programming badly, having to prepare for two quizzes, starting on research project, which have to be followed by report + presentation and final year project and have to study for exams.. arghh.. why is this semester so hectic eventhough I'm taking less subjects?

Then I had insomnia for two nights in a row, only slept a few hours, after seeing the sunlight stream into my room. wth. Was so worried about the amount of work I have to do.

FMLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL

Wednesday, May 04, 2011

hohoho!

yiieehaa!! first post of the year.. and it had to be during exam period, and it's May already!! Oh May, May, May has been good I guess, except for the exams... well, it is only the 4th day of the month so I dont know yet but let's just pray and hope it'l be good.

Oh, I gotta Mention that my April was fantabulous, awesome and just, WOW! I Love April, hehe..not only wonderful things happened in April but it's my Birthday month too, well not saying there wasnt some downs in April but overall, I just love it! TEE HEE XD

so I haven't been blogging for a long long long time and I somehow is not very keen to blog anymore. Lazy I suppose, and does this blog even have any viewers still? lol, and I just conquered another exam this morning and surprisingly this one I think I did quite well. I mean, I can do it except for one or two sub questions which might cost me like, 12-15marks but ohwells.. I just want to pass, and this paper definetely I can.

so Im going to get some rest now before I cram my brain with another course... gah, I seriously hate exam period. boo!

Wednesday, March 16, 2011

Slack week & job woes

Last week was one lazy week for me. Made a trip to ACMI with Amanda for the 'Dreams Come True' exhibition.


In the exhibition, we get to see the artwork and sketches by the artists/cartoonists, paintings, animations and all that is involved in bringing about the Disney animated films we used to watch growing up like Snow White, Beauty & the Beast, The Little Mermaid and even those that we watch these days like the Princess and the Frog and Tangled(or Rapunzel which is in other countries). It was just a Thursday afternoon after class and I declared it like some Saturday afternoon. At the end there was a drawing room, where people can draw their favorite Disney characters and display it on the wall.



So, we drew ours for fun as well :P





Mine.. lol

Soo.. after that we went out of the exhibition place and came across the Melbourne Food & Wine Festival, where we sat on beach chairs that were weirdly laid out there for nothing and watched a cooking show LIVE.


This pic was taken before the cooking show started. They're playing some Italian-sounding music that made me feel like I'm in Paris haha

After that, spontaneously met up with my friends for dinner and spontaneously decided to catch a movie. We watched Rango, which I thought was a waste of time :S Really didn't liked it at all, maybe I dun like Spanish accent..hmmm or the ugly animals or the lousy plot.

Then Friday came, and instead of doing important things, I dilly-dallied till dinner time and after dinner time, went to a bar called the Red Hummingbird and then it's sleep time alrdy. Another day wasted.. I'm so good at not appreciating time.

Saturday was a little more productive, I think? Woke up earlier than usual and went to Victoria Market and bought a trolley-ful of groceries. It takes a lot of effort for me to drag myself all the way there, just to buy meat, veges, fruits, etc.. but most importantly, my main aim there was established; to get oysters! Yumm..



That night, I had dinner with friends I haven't seen in months or half a year at Shoya. It was an awesome possum dinner as it was considered fine dining I suppose. It was a ten-course dinner, Japanese food, all intricately arranged and portioned so small , gourmet style. So yea, was amazed and really happy coz recently I have been complaining about how I've never been to fine dining places before and would love to try doing that some day:D

Attended this recruitment talk by Ericsson yesterday and last week to a Careers Fair. These days I've been swamped by job talks. People around me are getting hired, looking for jobs, etc. Sigh.. feeling so left out. And even those who haven't got jobs at least had internship experiences. And people who get hired, they get hired by big companies. I've got friends who got hired by KPMG, Accenture, Intel, PWC, IBM, National Australia Bank (NAB)... and has gone through interviews with Boeing(the aeroplane company), Campbells' soup.. oh my god.. I don't know how to describe how intimidating all these are. It's as if it's so easy to get in when it sure as hell is SO not easy. Have been thinking of applying for jobs before I graduate but it's not that possible at the moment.

In Australia, big companies love offering graduate programs. I don't know about other countries yet, coz I haven't researched.. but it's very very common here. Graduate programs are full-time jobs, but they rotate you around the company so you get a feel of each department of the company, this would take about 1.5-2 years before you advance on, without training. So, the recruitment for these graduate programs are very sought after by all final year students. Usually they give priority to Australians/PRs to apply in March(which is about now), then by 3 weeks, after going through resumes would then call applicants up for phone interviews, group interviews, and finally an offer will be made around May. Isn't that so efficient?? Before you even graduate, you know you're hired to work next year in February in the company already, wat a relief it would be if I could get hired that way. But I CAN'T! All because I don't have a PR at the time of application, which is usually March/April. Even if you aren't a PR, they would want you to have like a receipt/evidence that you're applying for it at the time of application. WTH.. how is that even possible? I can't apply for PR until I graduate end of this year anyway. So, in other words, these graduate programs are not applicable to me.. sigh! If there's graduate programs in Singapore, maybe I'll give it a shot and apply for several companies before I graduate.

Friends have been telling me about common interview questions, how to answer them, what to wear. And work stories such as about colleagues, managers, attire, culture, casual Fridays, lunch times, I always hear are making me so jealous! I wanna work.. I wanna have income!

Well, no point ranting. Just gotta wait. And I really hope I get into a good company to start, despite my really ugly academic transcript. I've been told everytime I ask if academic excellence affects application consideration and they always say the same thing -> "Not really, we're looking for well-rounded people. People who don't only do well in studies, but are able to communicate with people and are proactive, etc".... Hope that is true, because I seriously can't rely on my academic performance to get a job.


Monday, March 07, 2011

Week 2 of uni

Today's weather is "fantabulous"! Could actually walk out in shorts for the first time since I came back. I can't believe I was a mad freak about series.. spent my whole weekend, plus last Friday( I overslept, so didn't go for class) finishing up Can't buy me love and starting and finishing Ghost Writer. Also went to a rooftop bar called Madame Brussels last Friday night.






Pictures taken from Google, coz my lousy camera can't capture the night view very well.

So yea, quite a cute place, feels like the perfect place for a garden party with cupcakes, scones and tea. However, we went there for cocktails instead lol.

Finally my group members and I went to see my supervisor today about our project. Have got soooo much to read up on. Seriously, why did I spend so much time on series... now I'm quite hooked, feel like watching my next series in line, In the Eye of the Beholder.

Ooh yea, was supposed to recap on my awesome summer holiday.
Instead of doing an internship the whole summer, I wasted it away on being a driver to my sisters.. fetching them to and fro wherever they wanted. Sigh, wat a use of my precious time.. other than that, I was running errands for my mom or sleeping a LOT.

So to summarize, I:

- went to KK with Shen, Clint, Glo, Soon & Melvin. Awesome trip, tiring too. I remember sleeping very easily every night, coz I was so darn tired. Sleeping to and fro on the way there by car, eating, shopping, water sports for a whole day which includes jet ski, fly fish, snorkelling, parasailing & banana boat, karaoke, great hotel(thanks to Clint), bubble tea from Yoyo, Fish & Co and bak kut teh & Salut for dinner, xiao long baos, takoyaki, egg tarts, A&W. One Borneo twice, Starbucks twice. Nichii twice HAHAHA, why all twice? Didn't have enough time the first time.

- spent Xmas and New Year's in Brunei with family & friends. Fel & Lynn & & her friends, Teo and Henry were in Brunei. So spent some time playing rummy, dinners and visiting Kampung Ayer. Xmas & Boxing day dinners with family & at Uncle John's house, New Year's dinner with Fel, Shen, Henry & Jee Wei.

- Flew to back Melbourne for 10 days for my supplementary paper, which I passed alrdy.. yay. While on transit in KL both times, I stayed for a night. Spent two nights' time, with cousin & auntie & uncle. While in KL, ate my favorite hokkien mee, watched Season of the Witch, toured Taylor's College new Lakeside campus, went to the Library bar.

- Shopped quite a lot in KK & Melbourne, looking for CNY clothes

- Flew back to Brunei, spent about a week there, then off to Tawau for 2 weeks for CNY.

- Tawau was boring. The wait for CNY to come around was too slow to bear. It felt like forever before CNY came, coz we went back like a week before CNY started. Had numerous limteh sessions with my cousin and her friends. CNY was fun though, watching lion dances perform those dangerous jumping stunts on those high poles, collecting angpaos, visiting relatives, meeting cousins for limteh sessions, eating, being able to drive myself out to cease boredom, shopped a little due to boredom and managed to buy 2 heels. Quite unbelievable considering that's a small town. What could u possibly buy from there? But then again, it's nevertheless still much much much better than Brunei. Also bought lots of hair tie stuff, a dress, some earrings. When it was time to leave, it was a mixture of sadness and happiness.. sigh

- Back to Brunei on 6th day of CNY. KB road trip with Shen and friends one Sunday, sakikong and painian every other day. Lost except once the entire CNY.. seriously was in bad luck for gambling. Open house on Chap Goh Meh. Very fun CNY indeed, fun fun everyday.

- Lots of movie time. With KK gang, The Devil, All Well Ends Well, The Mechanic. Homecoming with Shen. I love HK, Sanctum & the Green Hornet with family.

- Eating! After every time I pick Rachel up from school during the noon at 2 or 3 or 4 pm, we'll go eat. Laksa and green sien chai noodle soup from Shiang Ping & Excapade many times, kolo mee, KFC cheesy wedges, butter milk prawn, pizza hut, Ayamku, etc trying to recall but can't remember what else I ate.

- Tried Zumba with Shen, Rachel and Nat one day.. with Vivian leading us, with her pro Zumba moves. It was super tiring for me, coz I have not exercised in a really long time.. feel so exhausted after 20 mins, and had a stitch halfway.. sigh. But it was fun nevertheless, wouldn't mind going again (Y)

- I didn't really do much in Brunei during non-CNY period I suppose.. except being a driver, fetching sisters and running errands and meetups with friends.

Wednesday, March 02, 2011

First week of uni 2011

Sigh, another urge to blog.

Right now, I'm listening to JJ's album, the latest one, where he sings all the songs he's written for many female singers. I think I'm weird, before this, I was thinking, why doesn't it bother me if I dun listen to any songs. I dun feel that it's silent or that I need to constantly listen to something. This is a seriously HUGE contrast to the old me. I used to be a music fanatic, whatever's new I have to know, as soon as I step into the house, I have to play my songs. Used to bring my Ipod and listen to it everywhere, esp when mp3 players started rolling out around the age of fifteen. But now, I dunno what's wrong! Does it mean I like being silent these days? It doesn't bother me that during my 8-hr flights to and fro Melbourne multiple times, that I never even switch my Ipod on at all, not even for a while. In the past, every tram ride, everywhere I walked on the streets, I need to have my music with me at all times.. now I dun even bother, I just leave it at home. Songs that I've downloaded since last November, I have not even listened to them. The only time I'm obligated to listen to songs is when I'm driving.. and I don't even bother selecting songs I like and putting them in the car to listen, I just merely turn to the radio and just go with whatever's playing. Lost touch with music man -_-" And when I listen to the Chinese songs, I go all emo, coz the music is so damn sad! Oh, I suddenly remembered another occasion where I actually need my songs with me, and that's during the exam period. Reading the never-ending pages of lecture notes without the Ipod is torture, so quiet, and lecture materials keep driving me to sleep.


Anyways, Visa renewal is annoying, so many procedures to go through. Have to go for medical check up 2 weeks later. Currently anticipating the burden that's piling on me from uni. Went shopping a little, bought two skinny long pants and a hair curler finally. Need to experiment more with the curler, coz I suck at using it. BUT I can't use it too often. Even with heat protector sprayed before using it, I'm pretty sure the heat is gonna kill my hair if I use it every other day.

Went to try out the Blackberry Torch today. Still wondering if I should get the Torch 9800 or the Bold 2 9780. Hmmmmm.. Torch is so like my old LG phone, half touch screen, half keyboard. However, Torch's screen reminds me of the Iphone's screen, huge, and easy to browse webpages and pictures with. Funny thing is, I can use either the touch screen or the usual scrolling touchpad thing to click on this or that. And can type with either the physical slide out keyboard or the on-screen keyboard like the Iphone's. How peculiar I find, having the option to use it like an oldschool Blackberry scrolling up and down, left and right or just touch touch touch like the Iphone. When I see the Bold 2, I find it so small! And it seems to pale in comparison to the Torch.. sigh.. but it's small and compact, the screen is pretty small too, smaller than my bold 9000. Dilemma~



I am so missing being in Brunei still! Don't really know if I miss driving. I keep complaining of having to drive so much in Brunei, but walking here is not too bad either. Prob coz the distance is not too far as I'm right in the city.

Seeing the uni sickens me. I really cannot wait to get out of it. Need a new life.. new purpose in life, work not study. Need money! Need independence, dun wanna use parents' money with guilt everytime I buy something that is not necessary.

Got my friend Jason to dismantle my whole laptop and clear all the dust build-up in my laptop's fan. Previously, my computer heats up like crazy, I swear it can cook an egg or be an iron, it burns if u leave ur fingers on it for more than a few seconds. Gets worst if it has been left on the bed. And the wind that comes out of the vent was always warm! Now, after all dust is cleared, the vent actually blows out cool air.. amazing! And my laptop is not HOT anymore :D

Monday, February 28, 2011

Blogging in autumn time

My gosh, how long have I not blogged man? Since October! I skipped abt 3-4 months of blogging.. hehe, all thanks to Facebook, for taking blogging out of a lot of peoples' lives. I even stopped reading blogs altogether.

Sigh.. Right now I can't sleep. That's why I'm blogging. Slept on the plane for about six hours during midnight(the right time to sleep). But it was so uncomfortable sleeping in a sitting position, plus when I arrived, two other planes arrived at the same time.. so the immigration queue was the longest I've ever been in any immigration queues in my life.. took more than 1.5 hours just to get out of the airport. sheesh.. when I reached home, I was tired as hell already. So I slept for abt 4-5 hours in the noon, then for about 4 hours during the night. So now I can't sleep! grrrrr..Am supposed to wake up at a normal time tomorrow, for class and to settle A LOT OF THINGS like unpacking, renewing student visa, renewing student card, lectures, project briefings, upgrading to a new phone, grocery shopping, etc etc..

Well, I was actually intending to blog about what has happened over the past few months. SO much has happened, I dun even know how to and where to start.

hmmmm...




maybe another time..


Now, for some resolutions:

1) Must study hard! Most importantly, Start Early.. no slacking.. Try to be as interested as possible in subjects, so that it quickens studying(hate how when I try to start my engine for studying, I totally hate the subject contents, keep resisting reading even a page.. but once it starts, I get a little interested, and then only can I keep going, faster and faster)

2) Allocate time for these: series(maybe 1 or 2 episodes a day), exercise, reading storybooks(just impulse bought 4 books from KLIA's MPH). I realise I never allocated time for movies/series. I just dun bother usually. I only watch shows certain times in a year, not regularly. Even listening to songs, I get so lazy, I dun bother listening to them, as in I don't bother turning on my playlist at all.

3) Cook more!

4) Have a better sleep and wake up time. Try to be as regular as possible. I hate it when some days I sleep longer into the noon and can't sleep earlier during the night. sigh..


Ok, that's about it.

I'm so missing my Brunei routine. No studying, no cooking, no set time to wake up and sleep, do watever u want.. I missssssssss. And I'm missing everyone in Brunei! I dunno why I just instantly feel sad and bogged down by things I have to do here when I reach Melbourne. Guess that's reality for you.. study/work times can never compare to holiday times.

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