问世间情为何物

dear all, it's been a while since i've updated here. it's almost beginning to be like as if i'm not part of it hehehee *paiseh*

today i feel like ranting so i shall.

i want to know why people always get frustrated over 儿女私情 (that's directly translated as men-women-private-passion (sounds funny) i.e. love and relationships for those of you who lack education in chinese), because right now, i am frustrated.

history seems to repeat itself, and one look upon the mirror, i realise i have once again turned into the kind of girl i am NOT. if this is what love makes you do/ turns you into, then i don't want to be in love, because this kind of love makes me lost in confusion and i no longer behave like who i truly am, it's toxic love.

and then again i think about the one person whom i was always myself with. but this one person breaks my heart into pieces, not because of typical misgivings but simply because he's too selfish to invest in a relationship. here, you can argue that it's not worth waiting for someone who may never turn back to you. reminds me of that ironic statement "a person worth crying for will never make you cry" or something like that. so technically a person worth waiting for shouldn't make me wait??

what is wrong with this world???

time flies...

it's been almost a month plus now since I work, plus the 2 weeks holidays. HEE, and if I count down the days to leave, it's like.....3 weeks left? ohno, I havent done my video teaching yet, and my research and analysis for one of my next semester's module assignment... and another report writing for Another module.. gah! Uni really sucks~ ohwells....

so how's it been like teaching in the school? I'd say Im enjoying every bit now.. though some of my kids are really ... uncontrollable but they are adorable at times too. HEH.. but Im still doubting myself.. if this is what Im going to do for the rest of my life...NAH~ I wana be my own boss~~ have my own time~~ do my own things~~ heehe...

so I just got back from a relief class.. now slacking in the staffroom, doing nothing because I have basically prepared most of the lesson for this week. WHEE XD

and it's sunshowering now outside. crazy weather.

so this is my latest updates. more to come. ciao :)