pre-exam Stress.

It has always, always been like this. A week or two before the exam confirm cant help to procrastinate, again and again and heh, I can already imagine myself saying 'I wished I have more time' a day before the exam.

SIGHS! buckle up already, Shenny Tang! This semester is crazy; with 6maths and 1 accounting course, I doubt... but I'm going to prove myself wrong, again. I'm definetely going to score.

My objective is to get 2As', 3Bs', 1C and 1D but Dear God, if you think my request is a bit too much then a pass will do. seriously. amitabha.

hmm, I don't think anyone is reading this bloggie, except for the Bloggers eyhs? so it's like I blog for myself to read, haha.. but Jasmine Yap, if you see this, JIAYOU JIAYOU JIAYOU yess!! We can do it aite! hehe, I see you soon!! xoxo

Blogging in springtime

Hello to the few readers out there,

Really dunno why I just don't feel like blogging anymore these days. I'm so lazy. I'm so lazy to even upload photos on Facebook.

Updates:

Have been working for about 2 months now, waitressing. I'm definitely feeling more comfortable now, no more anxiety issues I used to deal with, before I went in the first few times. Have already broken a total of 1 water glass and 3 wine glasses and not proud of it and my boss is just too nice to not charge me for it. Have been well fed by the chef, some days I work during lunch hours(usually do dinner times), I get my lunch. But before I leave to go home, the chef made me take back a tapao of that night's dinner as well, how nice!

Tim Burton's Exhibition displays the works of the director behind most of Johnny Depp's movies like Charlie and the chocolate factory, Sweeney Todd, Alice in Wonderland, Edward Scissorhands, Tim Burton. Went there with Amanda one Sunday. His works are really quirky and weird to the max. Looking at them actually give me the creeps at how someone can think/draw with so much eccentricity. Weird shit.

Boring uni stuff happens.. as usual. But I shouldn't be complaining, only doing three subjects this semester, so I'm relatively more free compared to the normal workload of 4 subjects.

Finally gotten around to using a Blackberry. Just thought the BBMessenger and Whatsapp are quite convenient as u can chat with people unlimitedly. And the ability to receive instant email notifications in my phone are both good and bad. Good, cause if there's any important announcement in my uni email gets sent in, I would know about it instantly or if someone tags some bleargh picture of me in Facebook, I'd know. Bad, because sometimes it's so annoying! A simple comment on my Fb page would send a beep/blink on my phone. And if 10 other comments continue on that same initial comment, my phone won't stop bugging me. Case in point: my birthday. Super lots of beeping on my phone coz of the FB greetings, I wanna hide it under a pillow. But then again, I'd know instantly who greeted me. Oh well, could have switched the blinking/sound off, but didn't.

Went to my first uni ball ever. Loved the venue. I wore a dress that resembled a wedding gown according to a lot of people including myself.. But I still like it. hahah, like what the salesgirl said, makes me feel like a princess. And I've always wanted to wear a long dress, finally gotten around to wearing one. Yay!

OOh, and I won a $10 Sushi shop voucher for lucky draw. haha, already used it yesterday. And also, the organisers of the ball got us free entrance to Seven, the afterparty club venue, we just had to show our ball tickets.

The birthday - Really didn't feel like celebrating this year. So, just had lunch with Amanda and dinner with friends.

Went to Tasmania for 4 days, 3 nights. Apparently Tasmania is supposed to be boring, lots of sight-seeing and that's about it. But lucky, we did more adventurous stuff and that took the boring factor out for us. The day we arrived, we all went to a honey farm, but it's more like just a honey shop.






Then after dat, we went to explore caves, with a tour guide of course. The stalactites and rock formations were quite pretty and it kept reminding me of what Geography taught many years ago.




Day 2, we went to Cradle Mountain for hiking. Love the scenery.. so beautiful.

* Actually getting lazier to upload photos here alrdy, so stay tuned in FB for more pics.

Day 3, white water rafting & ghost tour. Ghost tour freaked me out so badly, apparently we went into a prison area, it's a really big piece of land with lots of old buildings that look like castles, this whole place used to a convict prison for about 170 years ago. And one of the houses there was supposedly the 2nd most haunted house in Australia and the guide made us go into it and stayed in one of the rooms while he explained all the sounds and sightings people have experienced in there. Goodness..so scary. Like he said a grumpy old man ghost is always seen near the window there and then pointed his torch at that direction wth. Then the guide always brought us to a particular area where people used to see ghosts, hear footsteps, feel cold, all those things u get when a ghost is near u.

So anyways, Day 4 explored Hobart city(capital of Tasmania), went to the Salamanca Market where they sell handicrafts, old books, food, jewelleries, etc then off to the airport and back to Melbourne.

So back to Melbourne, back to study. Timetable just came out, exam ends on 19th Nov, earlier than I expected. So, dat's great, can relax earlier, but that also means I have to start studying, like now! Which is what I'm trying to do daily. Sigh, really need to get good grades.

BREAKTHROUGH!

Yes, I seriously need a breakthrough, in every aspect of my life. kinda feel so sick about everything around me now... my life; my studies, this and that and all... everything is just so.. plain and stale and sad, and Boring!

and I cant seem to get over with something that is already over. SHENNY! Get Over With It!

I need a path, a new route.. to a whole new me! GAH! I just feel so negative now... about everything! What is wrong with me..

Inspired.

so what have I been doing lately? so, some updates about me...

well, I'm in my 3rd year now in Uni, one more year to go and I'm graduating, hopefully. fingers crossed. So what's happening now? I cannot imagine that eight freaking months have passed and it's September 2010 already. This year has been a fun one; many happenings; both ups and downs until I did not have time to keep up to date to this blog. lol.

heh, so I managed to pass my semester 4 smoothly with no supplementary and during that 3 months holiday, I worked my *ss off with 2 jobs in June and got well paid. So as a reward to that, I sponsored myself to chill and relax at KK and Singapore with a bunch of awesome friends. I seriously had a great time there and after that trip, boy I just wished I was staying there.

Just to share with you guys, I enjoyed my June this year very much; handling 2 jobs and pretty much all my time was occupied that month. I had no time to spare for anything at all. However at the same time I learned quite a few things that was really worth it. I learned that money really don't come easily. You want more money, you will have to earn it, and it's not easy to earn it. There are bound to have sacrifices to it. I sacrificed my time :(

Yes, my time. I missed out a lot of valuable time with my family and friends. I still remember missing out a few dinner functions with my family and how left out I felt but I cant do anything. I got to be responsible with my work. Also, I missed out a few sports outing and also hangouts..... boo, but that's not so bad. What I really sacrificed was also my REST/SLEEP! I hardly have time to rest at all, and I thought I looked awful that time. Heh, can you imagine; working from 8am to 930pm everyday, well, except weekends but there was 2 weeks I had to work on Saturdays too. I finally understand why the working people insisted to treat their weekends well by enjoying themselves. From that month onwards, I always looked forward to weekend and treasured my weekend like a precious diamond. lol. Seriously.

So enough about my June.

Seriously what happened for the whole month of June has made me think a lot on what I really want for myself in the future. I came to realize that that is not what I want to do for a living in the next coming years. I don't want to be working my *** off for money. I met some new people recently and I thought what they said was right. I don't want to live my life controlled by my emotions, the two emotions; fear and desire. The fear of losing the job because if I lose my job, I wont get the money I want. On the other hand, the desire to get the things I want from money to make me go to work to get the money in order to get the things I want.

Sighs` so I'm still finding and trying ways to make sure I do not go into this cycle in the future and also to try go out from this cycle now, because I think that is exactly how I am feeling working my part time job now. There's actually nothing much I can do now because I am still quite dependent to my parents. So what I really can do now is to finish off my course in the Uni before I set my foot to another path, a path that I can actually be independent to my parents. [ahhh, Scary! lol ] Though I must admit I regret taking this path I'm walking now But since I've chosen this path, I will just continue on until the end before I see another junction. By that time, I will be sure to choose the right path :)

So as I was going to end this post just now, something happened... and I was suddenly inspired and wrote a short note. It was actually written in hope to wake someone up.. and yea, I thought I could share it here too.

''You never realized you have a nice family, you only care how nice or bad your friends treat you. You never realized how much your family has done for you, you only care what you can do for your friends. You never realized how worried your family can get when they can't reach you, you only care about how they do not trust You. You never realized no matter how big the argument you get with your family that in the end they will still treat you like the argument did not happened. What You have never realized doing to your family is that You always resent being told what to do. I really hope one day You will grow up and wake up to realize how blissful your life is, to have such wonderful people around you already. I also hope you will learn how to treasure those who loves you for just the way you are, and not those who try to change you to what you are becoming now.''

a quote to share :

have or not have or not have or not!?

你有没有 爱过我，有没有想过我， 有没有 有没有 也会有一点心动 的时候 但是说不出口 ♪

have la hor hor hor! Heeeeee

Our Equation!! I missed you.

this post is just going to be a soft opening eyh...

Yes, I'm coming back, to blog more after this post, yes I will.

I missed blogging, actually forgot how it feels to blog already;

the feeling of blogging and after blogging.

so I am going to blog soon! heee...

and oh Jasmine Yap! If you see this post, I missed you! talk to you soon okay! xx

My very eventful first week of uni

So, this post is gonna be pretty long. Time for me to rant and rant and rant and rant. It actually feels pretty good putting things down in words, exactly like a journal. Coz when I look back at these posts, I actually can remind myself of different phases of my life, which I definitely can't remember forever so clearly in my mind.

Day #1, Last Sunday

Switched room with housemate Siew Chien. Reason being that my sis came and lived with me and we needed the other bigger room. So, it was packing packing, cleaning, shifting, setting up the bed, the toilet stuff.. and then other smaller stuff gets relocated into the new room and placed in newly-organised cupboards and shelves. Putting things neatly at the right place took forever, it is still on-going. I just have too many things and I wanna put everything perfectly into the right places, not just anywhere and everywhere.

Day #2 Monday

Thank goodness, after days of waiting for my supp paper exam result, I finally was told by the lecturer that I passed. Whopeeee!

Day # 3 Tuesday

Sat on bed with laptop on one day and pondered upon my recent discovery. I discovered last year around Sept/Oct, that my left hip is jutting out far more than the other side. Googled "hip jutting out one side more than the other" and voila! I found something frightening. The whole Google search page shows one big word "Scoliosis". A girl asked the same question on Yahoo Answers! and the person who replied said "Have u been checked for scoliosis?" Went and research on scoliosis and got freaked out even more. Coz other symptoms matched my condition. Hip higher on one side, shoulder is one higher than the other, pants hemline might differ(one shorter, one longer). So off I go, immediately, to see the doctor. Told him, I think I have scoliosis. Measured my hip to ankle to see if I have one long and one short leg. Nope. Then pressed my spine from the neck down, feels straight. But he agrees that my hip does jut out on the left more. So, I was suggested to do an X-ray. So, off I go to the hospital to do an X-ray, just wanna get things done asap, and the x-ray place was closing around the time I left. phew. Now to just wait for the x-ray film to be sent to the doctor I saw previously

Day #3 Wednesday

Attended a friend(Ruwan)'s 21st birthday party. It was great, though it felt a bit boring. The theme of the party was white! White dresses everywhere that night, I was amazed how everyone could actually find something white and nice to wear coz they were ALL complaining about how hard it was to find white dress/clothes to wear and how it looks fat on them. hahah. It was a good night, I would say.

Day #4 Thursday

X-ray report out, went to see doctor. As soon as I walked on, he said "Jasmine, yes, you do have scoliosis I'm afraid to say". Woahhhh... I "Oh my god"-ed to the doctor. Then I saw my x-ray image of my spine on his computer. It was a freaking convex (c-shaped)to the right. The reason why my left hip is jutting out is because my hip is trying to compensate for the spine curving to the right. Damn.. bad news much. I really do feel disabled when I went home and read all the sufferings people go through with that. To further confirm what I have to do next, I have to go see an orthopedic specialist. Only the specialist can tell me how much the angle of my spine has curved off and to decide whether I have to exercise or wear a brace around my waist to straighten my spine. sighh.. Told my family and they kinda freaked out a little and advised me on what to do next. Another astonishing discovery: it now has become clear how come, all through my years of spectacle wearing(started in form 4) that my ears were one up and one down. And true enough, it's cause of the scoliosis. The ear that is lower down is the right side.. where my shoulder is lower too.

Day # 5 Friday

Went to submit my resume to the restaurant that my friend recommended me to work at cause she knows the boss. Got interviewed a little.. and was told to go back the next day for a trial.Got told that trials are $10 per hour. Awesome. The last time I went for trials, they didn't even pay me a single cent.

Day # 6 Saturday

Anticipated all day long for 5 pm. That's when my trial for work as waitress started. Don't even know if it's a good or bad thing for my back, standing for long hours and straining my back. Anyways, had to learn how to do the usual waitress duties like serving, taking orders, greeting customers, wiping tables, washing glasses. It was a good experience really. Always wanted to know how it feels to be behind, in the kitchen and how things work in there. That night, it was madness. Apparently, I was thrown right into the deep end on first day of trial wth. Coz there was this feast going on. Some rich Taiwanese/HK young adults were dining that night. A total of 22 people. They had like such yummilicious food, like lobster shashimi lou sang(which I was lucky enough to taste at the kitchen. LOL the boss was saying how I'm lucky coz I get to eat lobster on the first day. Usually the waiters there only get it like once a year), crabs, abalone, oysters, shellfish, and all other things. So yums..but too bad, I'm not the one eating, but the one serving. That brings me to another point. You know, it feels so different to serve and to be served, like completely, utterly different. When we're served at restaurants, we somehow have this superiority, like we're kings, we're being served and we look at waiters like servants. Whereas, when I was serving, I felt the total opposite. I felt so looked down upon for some weird reason. grrr.. weirdness. like I'm a servant. But oh well, a servant gets paid. Oh, also, it was damn hectic, was running up and down the stairs like mad, at one point, I was actually sweating. Then, I broke a glass. But anyway, at the end of the day, I was kinda overpaid. I got $60 working from 5-10.20 pm. I felt a bit bad that I'm taking money but not staying till the particular time I'm supposed to be paid till, that's 11 pm. So, I stayed on and washed glasses. Andddd..I got $3 tip, divided from the tip jar. I got to drink some longan dessert and some Coke. Furthermore, every time anyone works, there's gonna be a meal prepared by the chef. If you don't wanna eat it, you still have to take away. Chef gets angry if you don't and if you throw food..lol And we all are supposed to call him Sifu..haha funny.

Day #7 Sunday

Today was pretty motivated to wake up cause my friends made breakfast plans. But I only reached at 11 am, so I guess it's not breakfast anymore, more like brunch. After that, walked around the city a little. Oh my, all the running and walking in the restaurant yesterday was like a workout. I was aching all over today, like the kind I get after working out in the gym after a long time of not visiting the gym. Around 5, my generous friend, Jason took me to IKEA. Yay, time to get my new study desk, then had dinner. At home, I anxiously assembled the table and finally got to place all the things I had on the floor onto the table AT LAST. Felt so homely. Just realised that without a study table, life feels so incomplete. Was arching over on the floor or on the bed, when I was using the laptop for the past week. Really Bad for the back. Now, I'm sitting comfortably in a good sitting position, typing away. Bliss! And then set up my speakers, happy! I really prefer music from speakers rather than laptop, much clearer and there's a subwoofer. Oh, reason I had to buy a new table was cause my old one was old and wobbly whenever I rubbed something off using eraser on the table, it would shake badly, making all the things on the table rattle, damn annoying.

Anyway, super damn long entry!

I am so happy I'm finally settled into this room despite having lots to clear still. Too many unwanted old clothes, old electrical cables and wires, containers, etc... the list goes on.

Ta,

Jas

Persevere

I'm in uni now at this ungodly hour.. supposed to be studying but ended up surfing net like mad for hours, chatting to ppl ard here and there and then downloadings songs. Listening to 2 new Jay Chow songs, 'Chao ren bu hui fei' and 'wo de di pan' . Don't know why 'wo de di pan' is so freaking emo, listening to it makes me feel unnecessary emo too...it's such a sad song, makes me very gan dong and bei shang wth. My heart is like heavy.

Anyway..let's see. Update from the last time I blogged. Completely recovered, but recently kept sneezing and had to keep clearing my throat. Essay was over and done, didn't get a grade that I expected.. but oh well, just gotta do better for the exam. Mid-semester tests were done too.. didn't quite well. Hope I'm not on the road to hell again. Then.. exam timetable's out, having them on 9,15,23 & 24. And after that, planning to make a trip to Gold Coast or anywhere else during the one month hols. Main aim is to go do bungee jumping, something I wanna do since a long time ago. And zorbing too.. where they put you in a huge transparent ball and roll you down the hill.

Lately, I've become a bit of a shopaholic, kept going to buy clothes -_-" And trying to look for really thick tights for winter but can't find any good ones.

Watched Ip Man 2 and Alice in Wonderland. Ip Man 2 was super awesome! Loved Donnie Yen, he's damn cool. My cousins tell me he's like the new Jackie Chan or Jet Li. Alice In Wonderland was just so-so.. not bad I guess, very quirky though.

Just couldn't figure out why I'm so unacceptable to certain things. I mean I can accept it if it was connected to someone I don't know at all.. but when it's with someone close, or related to someone close, I just feel so annoyed and disgusted. grrrr.. what's wrong with me? I know I shouldn't be bothered by other people's actions, but hey, some things are just un-ethical and not the norm in the society I was brought up in. Maybe I'm closed-minded? Maybe I'm innocent and ignorant to all things out there that's happening currently in the other dark and wicked world?

My Holiday

..STARTED an hour ago! woots! 3months AWAY from UNIVERSITY life.

I'm too happy for words.

Just want to announce and share my happiness here.

and Oh, I'm in Love with HTC DESIRE. should i get it? any reviews about it? but anyhoots I think I'm going to get it soon, I hope.

also, I cant wait to go singapore/kk in July already.

I have got a feeling now, a feeling that this holiday would be GREAT! hee...

status : HUA HEE until............... xD

-signing off-

GOD HEARD ME!

YES, HE DID!

I was tweeting in the morning around 11ish; "Dear god, please hear my prayers today.....

today I'd my MS3424 Company Accounting paper and believe me, the questions I revised and looked through all looked as complicated as you can think of. The calculations to arrive to that one value and to complete that ONE question can take up to more than 4hours. Serious. Like what kaiping said, the questions are ''not for human to do" and he is considered a very good in accounting student ler, what more to expect from me.

so I was praying I could pass this course with an E, and when I reached UBD this morning, I was told by fawei that I would need to score just 10marks to pass the paper because I scored 30/40 for my coursework and the passing mark for this course is 40? hee... and it was inside the exam hall that I got to know I got to score at least 28 over that 100marks paper to pass with an E. So so conclusions..... I've scored a definite 15marks already, thanks to the teacher who suddenly stood beside me and told me how to do a question I KNEW how to do BUT FORGOT how to do; the mind was suddenly blocked temporarily...

so my point here is, without the 15marks, it's quite impossible that I can pass, unless Miracle; the teacher decided to give 30marks a Pass, which is quite impossible? if so then I score a zero mark also can pass already. LOL!

so another point here is, He answered my prayer! Dear God! Thank You! Thank You So much! *hearts*

Well, I still have 2 more papers; 7days to go. Cant wait, cant wait... cant wait to end this exam soon!!

Shenny Tang!! You can do this!! XD

Exams!

yes, it's the season again; Exam season, and so group study here and there. [*eeks, mosquitoes under my table!!!!!]

ok, so had my first paper last monday and it was not so bad. I dont think i can get an A, but a B or a C is a definete? hee.. I hope, but but.. tomorrow's paper; statistic, I hope for an E, seriously. My hopes are not high, only an E or else I dont know what more I can do.

I still regret why did I took up major in Maths; maths is just not my thing. sighs! anyhoots, like what my teacher said, since I'v been 'trapped in this tiger's mouth' already, why not just fight with it to get out of the mouth instead of hiding inside waiting for it to open its mouth to escape, which is quite impossible; rare chance.

so argh. im stress now again. lol! supposed to be revising, but i suddenly got this mood to blog about my feelings so here goes. Im stress im stress im stress NOT.

i seriously, need a lot of lucks!!

Work and play

Time for some updates from me again. Juggling work and play is definitely no easy task. These last few weeks have been so hectic.. in work and in play. After the Easter break, uni resumed, and schoolwork piled up mountain high, slogged through lab sessions, assignment due dates and late nights, keeping up with the extreme fast speed of information digesting(although I still fail badly in this area, I am always lagging behind in classes). But still, there were social events I "had" to go to. I know I should be like Oh I've not finished catching up with all the subjects' materials up to date, so I should just stay at home and study my ass off. IF only it was that easy to stick to such strict disciplinary rules man. It's so HARD. IESS had a Cocktail Night two Fridays ago and I had to go for that. It was the first event of that sort organised by the society, gotta go see how's it gonna work out. Then, there's Amanda's birthday yesterday, that I am definitely obligated to go. And then there's a day or two, that I just don't feel like studying/reading anything at all. And that one day that I felt I wanna go shop a little.. whether I really bought anything or not is not the issue, it's the feeling of joy that I actually get to go and shop, as my time is so constrained within uni schoolwork.

Anyway, I was just thinking, maybe it's coz I was dead sick the whole of last week, that I was feeling so lazy. Have been so sick the whole week. Was having non-stop-reaching-out-for-tissue moments almost every other minute, and my nose was so tired and my eyes got so small from blowing my nose countless times. In addition to that, I had been coughing very very badly. I actually get woken up by my coughs in the middle of the night. How freaking annoying. It went from dry to phlegmy to dry cough. Thank god, I'm starting to recover at the moment. Still having blocked nose nowadays though. arghhhhhhhhhhh.. die sickness, just die and go away.

Was trying to start writing my 3000 words essay (shared between me and my partner) but so far, I've only written about 100 words. Goodness, gotta have to churn a lot more words than that asap, coz I'm meeting my partner tmw. I can't turn up empty-handed really:S dun wanna be embarassed that I'm such a lousy partner to work with. sighhh... I feel this post is just filled with complaints complaints complaints. Have to start writing happy things when they happen.

Happy 22nd Birthday to Shennnnnnnnnnnn!

Today we see 134 everywhere..hahah your favorite number, Shen! From now onwards, our birthday ages are not gonna be so glam anymore, like for example 18,19,20,21. But anyway, it doesn't matter, as the number grows, you get to make more decisions on your own.. no need parents' consent, earn and spend your own money, no need parents' money, then soon you get to have your own family, own house, own car, own tuition business, etc etc, ok i'm going offtrack(in other words, u're gonna be more and more independent). Nevertheless, I know you'll always be the same Shenny we know, not gonna grow old with age yes? whether you're 25 or 30 or 40! Must always FEEL young eventhough the number is increasing:P haha, even now, I don't feel we're acting our age much. We're still crappily crapping, talking, laughing and joking like we're freaking teenagers right?? hahahah.

Wishing you Happy Birthday today again...may you have many many more wonderful birthdays to come! Ooh I saw your surprise video..damn funny. You kept squatting down eyy lol

Easter trip

Hey yo..

Ok, after getting over such depressing issues last month.. I had an Easter mid-semester break starting last Friday. Since then, I've put studying aside.. but was back to the library today..boo. Was just chilling day by day while watching 'The Beauty of the Game' series. Oh and I went to watch 'Clash of the Titans'. Throughout the movie, I kept comparing the storyline with that of 'Percy Jackson's The Lightning Thief'. The story is very much similar to each other except for one major fact that is a bit wrong. In Clash of the Titans, Perseus was son of Zeus instead of Poseidon(in Percy Jackson). Very confusing indeed.

On Monday and Tuesday, I went on a road trip to the Mornington Peninsula. Stayed overnight there too.

Some pics to show:

Hot chocolate at Old Bank Cafe

In a maze!

Feeling so crappy!

GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRr!!!

I dunno how to express myself! I'm bursting.
I am 20% happy(in a way), 35% feeling very disappointing and 45% guilty.
It's such a mixture of emotions i dunno how to contain myself.
Happy coz I finally said it after months and months of freaking hesitation and guts-developing.
I know I've let it out and I should be overjoyed and feeling very pheww~ but after a while it sinks in. I can't be entirely happy. It's so hard. It's not possible.
Annoyed that I am so disappointing, I disappointed them and have let their hopes down. It's the worst feeling ever. To be so useless. To shatter ppl's dream. To waste time and money. Where can they hide their faces when ppl ask? Ppl would think, why is she so stupid? Is she just squandering their money there doing nonsense instead? I can just imagine the whispers behind their backs. I'm so paranoid.
Guilty in so many ways... I don't even know where to start. I can't get past my own guilty thoughts. Why did I not be wise? Why why why? There's no way to turn back
I feel so sorry to them.
I'm in deep shit.
I hope I don't disappoint any further.
I seriously have to stick to what I say. For goodness' sake.
It's a long road and to take longer to complete it f*cking bugs the hell out of me.
I hope it comes by quick.
To regret isn't an option now.
ARGH

Nerd reporting from the library..muahahha

hahaha, i look so nerdy. I'm currently using the laptop I borrowed from the library. And it's quite new and it has a webcam..hahahah! and it's quite clear too.. so I try try to camwhore with it.. but oh my....look so urghh today.

Anyway.. weather update: after the whole hailstone episode, the whole of the next week was HOT! Like 30 degrees hot throughout the week. Talk about weird weather in Melbourne man. It can go from freezing cold or burning hot within a day. So now, I'm happily soaking in the lovely sunshine..coz next week's gonna start getting colder..grrr hate.

Anyway.. life has been pretty boring. All there is to do everyday is to study my arse off.. coz new materials won't ever stop pouring in, well not until the very last week of the semester.. sighhh.. Things are gonna turn ugly soon.. coz I've got two assignments alrdy.. and a grand total of 12 labs, starting next lab.. sigh.. 12 lab reports to do.. can go die.

Ok, I should go now. Supposed to use this precious time to prepare for my tute in half an hr. Tata!

Ice from the sky

Today I have to blog. hahaha coz it was raining hailstones (literally, ice cubes) from the sky! And it's so weird, coz I've never seen such huge ones and have never seen it LIVE, and the ones I usually see in the past are like tiny, crumbly ice..that is left on the windowsill after I get up. But today at noon, I heard sounds outside and thought why the hell are people throwing stones at the metal railings downstairs. *dong ding dang* ..so I went to have a look see look see. And what I saw wasn't stones, it was hailstones! They were hitting the metal thingy that are usually at the sides of the buildings. And then later they started hitting windows *plak plok plak* SO LOUD! Like people attacking ur windows -->(see this: sounds like that). And they're definitely larger than the ice cubes you get from ur fridge. BIGGGG ones. Probably golf-ball size. And it hit the windows so hard, I thought it might actually crack it, but luckily it didn't. Poor cars, as people drive, the ice cubes kept hitting their windows.. ahhaha like raining ice bombs.

Haha, ok I just saw this video down here. A road being flooded but looks more like a river flowing. Lucky I was indoors.....weeeeeeee



Here's a facebook group, go see the hailstones pics!
http://www.facebook.com/group.php?v=wall&gid=366815328124

But anyway, later during the day, I heard some people's cars got hit and windows got cracked. Scary shit...such weird weather, lucky I was indoors. Then somewhere, it flooded like mad. At some shopping centres, there was a blackout. And escalators and elevators stopped working. And you know what's weird? That it isn't even that cold! The coldest it could possibly be is maybe 16 or 17 degrees.

Went to watch Avatar with 3D glasses at night. I felt the movie was long and storyline not so good. Sue-Mae said it was like Pocahontas in blue..hahah. so true so true.But the 3D glasses did show a very very nice effect during the forest scenes. So glowy and neon.

Gah.. been cleaning like a mad freak for the past few days. So, have been tired and actually missing a few classes due to over-tiredness and over-sleeping..hehe. Still haven't unpacked my luggage fully. Grrr.. so lazy.

I miss Brunei ler.. miss being a lazy person at home, miss Shenny Tang and all friends, miss driving a little.. but still.. time to be a useful student, and use some brainpower!

Hello March!

Cny is over and the sem break started, how sad rights. Jasmine has left for melbourne dy; her Uni starting soon so Goodluck girl. Hope everything there goes well for you this year ;)

So it's the mid semester break now. Suppose to take this chance to study/revise what has been taught before this break and yet I am still taking my sweet time to enjoy this break like nobody's business; sleeping late, waking up late thus my mornings are usually gone and afternoon is left to lazy around the house and going to work/tutor at 7 til 930. Heh.. my daily life routine now until Sunday most probably. someone please help me............. maybe pour some water to me to wake me up? heh.. And also, Im supposed to do some exercising as the cny has made me gained some weight, but Im not doing anything. argh, lazyness!

so I was listening to some of the songs I didnt know I have in my laptops and I got so emo!! because they are all emo old songsss.. dang~
I suddenly recalled so many things; some past,and yea.. emo stuffs...

.....and as I was browsing through pictures I took from Jasmine few days ago, I REALISED I LOST MY BRACELET! my one and only favourite bracelet. It was my 21st bday gift, with a key and a heart-shaped lock. Argh!! I really dislike myself at times for being sooo soooooo sotong!!! =S

I really hope it'l pop out of nowhere maybe tomorrow or when..... sighs!

ahh, missing quite a number of people now [blame the emo songs. lol]; my friends, friends I have not seen/met for a long time dy...

Adrena Wong! leng!! lol, though we're living in the same Country, and at the same Kampong lagi, but it seemed like we're so far apart. like China and America. we hardly meet each other, not even in Uni though we're in the same Uni. This made me wonder is UBD really that big. lol.

and Jasmine Yap!!! I MISS YOU ALREADY LA! anyways, I'm sorry Jas, dint go to send u off at the airport. I couldnt bring myself there, cuz I was afraid I'll seh bat dat leiiiii very much.. so I chose to stay home though I had already dressed up and all, and when this ahsan called me at the airport, she made me feel so bad for not going. grrr! lolness.

also, Felicia Tee!! F!! I miss You la, and angry you also. How come we did not take a picture of us together when you came back the last time? this was taken like, years ago. so sads` I cannot find a picture of us together with our recent look. lol.. or maybe we did, but because last year I lost all my pictures in my lappie,so yea.. give me if U have yes when u come back this June/July-ish. Also, we need to take more pictures together :D xx

OH! NOT FORGETTING..

Amilyn Quah!!! I miss You too!! lol. this picture of u Cute ler!! hahaha XD

Heh, don't know why, this time when the three of you left for Brunei, I felt a bit sour sour, like 'Seh bat dat' you alll....... aihs! eh seh bat dat in english how to say ahh.. reluctant ka.. sighs` Old dy kua, so very got the feelings. lol. Hahaha, what am I saying. Ohwells =)

nah` the songs just stopped playing, probably trying to give me the signal that it's time to sleep. so Off I go ppls! and I hope there wont be spam commentss eyhs??? hmmm..

Chinese New Year

is coming to an end already. the 13th day of the lunar new year has just passed half an hour ago and today is the 14th day. My brother is leaving today later to kuching to cont'd his studies and also tomorrow is chap goh meh already. meh, it felt like it was only yesterday we all celebrated the 1st day of cny. How time flies.

Also, it's the start of my mid semester break now. whee! Holidays! But but but.... sighs` this mid sem break has got many things waiting for me to do them; assignments, revisions and more revisions. I want to do well for this semester. I must do well for this semester. Oh yes I can :D

I can also feel that this coming march's schedule will be super hectic for me. Uni and working at the same time is stressful. I just hope I am able to manage my time well. should I really get an organiser? heh` But I doubt I will use them.

Jasmine is leaving soon as well; two more days. Definetely will miss that sampat girl very much. hehe, her sampatness. lol.
sighs! most of my close friends are not in Brunei one :'(

anyhooots, it's time for bed dy... but but..just a few pictures before the end of this post on what I did yesterday :)

visiting at Jenny's place

Tutong Beach before heading to Queenie's place.

i love this shelf, like COOLEY COOL :D

so I guess this is about it. I really enjoyed this year Cny though.. hope this year will bring me good luck. Let's all hope All is well and they will end well during this new 2010 tiger year. Also, must HUAT ahhhhh! heh.

nights :)

GONG HEI FATT CHOY!

yes yes yes, Tomorrow is the BIG day for the chinese!! It's the Lunar New Year!! It's another new Year again, and this new year would be the year of TIGER!!

so, Here I wish everyone a Very Happy Chinese New Year!!

恭喜发财！祝做生意的商人生意兴隆，读书的呢，希望你们学业进步！最重要的还是要祝大家身体健康！

I guess this is it for this post!! ima go continue my cleaningggg.. yes, Last minute I know.. but that's the UniqueNess of the Tang Family!! YES, it runs in the family; quoted by my mum and my Aunt Joey about the Tang Family! haha

Good day Peoples, and a GOOD Year 2010 for all of us!! HUATTTTTTTT ahhh!! XD

credits to google search image :D

CNY is

COMING SOON! like 5more days! Gong xi gong xi gong xi NI!! 恭喜你恭喜你恭喜你！

haven't prepare much for it yet； mentally and everything. i'v been busy Uni, work and this and that. sighs! so I wished i had more time to go shopping and all. Last saturday, went down to Miri with '7dreamz' people for shopping But did not buy anything except for 2bags. sighs!

uh-oh, from my last post i mentioned about my supplementary result. hehe, good news peeps! I passed my supplementary result, with the help from my teacher. i really got to thank her, because she mentioned my name in the meeting to pass me; i think i failed the paper though. but seriously, i feel thankful xD
i will work hard, in my own way :D

and so I heard and also read through some horoscope book that this year is not going to be the year for Dragons. this worries me.. because, they said it right about my health. last 2 days, i had the most terrible tummy ache ever. it's not ache, but yea.. it was gastric pain my friend told me.. and gawd! i couldnt stand straight at all, felt like an old lady when walking and the feeling of it i could still remember until today, and that day i had to sing with the pain in my vocal class. imagine that. so the book actually predicted it right, but yes i know that i shouldnt believe too much in horoscopes but ohwells, i really got to take good care of my health, and be extra careful this year.

i watched 14blades just now, and the movie was not so bad. our very local International artist now; wuchun acted in it as well. i would say his acting improved but still the way he talks need to be improvised more.. and i actually loved the way he was dressed inside; his character, but still Donnie Yen's the best in the movie; he is just so... Man! heh` and i picked up a line from the movie which i find it quite meaningful and suits my feeling now.....

还有希望是幸福的 - it's fortunate to still have hope.
and so i'm hoping, and i'm wishing, that somehow someday we will be back to how we used to be. i miss.

New Post for year 2010

Lol my turn for my first 2010 post. I can honestly say this blog has been neglected...quite badly. haha, thanks to the lazy blog-owners:P

Anyway, let's see.. my 2009 was a rollercoaster ride. A very crazy one, in fact, with so many bumps along the way. sigh. Basically 2009 wasn't a really good year for me. So much shit happened that I've never ever experienced in my entire lifetime. So many complicated situations, that I have lost count on how many there were. I'ts not that everyday is a bad day, there are good days as well. But it's more like there's too many bad days in the year for me to handle. Anyway, I hope to put the past behind. Please, 2010, be a better year.

So, after yearning for months and months to return back to Brunei, I'm finally back in Brunei. Technically, I'm supposed to be back long ago, but was in KL during December and made a trip in between to Bangkok. While in KL, we had a few objectives. To get Amanda's braces fixed asap, shop, and eat! The braces were fixed on Amanda n Rachel.. and as for shopping.. omg, we went almost every other day, I actually felt it was like a job. Job was to shop. The problem why we had to go so many times, is because of either 1) we were really picky, coz we can't seem to buy much. Like I could spend a whole day in a shopping mall, and only buy 1 thing, or 2) the things in KL just don't appeal. I dunno which one is right, I tend to believe it's no. 2). But then again, I AM quite picky. Food, on the other hand, was satisfying. I actually completed my list of food-to-eat-in-KL. Ham dan crabs, sambal lala & sotong & stingray, lok-lok, curry laksa, yong tau foo n chee cheung fun, wat dan hor, KL hokkien mee, Char kuey teow, seafood stuff like balitong, clams(super fav), satay, rojak, kuey chap, oh jian, roti boy, mamak food, ban mee, claypot chicken, sago honeydew, etc etc. Oh and we tried this place, Pasta Zanmai, which serves fusion Jap and Italian food(Y) Yumm.. talking about them makes my mouth water. Yay, going for second round again, coz I'll be back to KL for CNY, for two weeks in Feb. I really wanna go for the buffet meals, heard there's a lot of them that are real good and serves a really wide variety of food.

Bangkok was fun, touring the city was a good cultural experience. There were times that we had language barrier. Like we were asking the salespeople about the things we gonna buy and they didn't understand a single bit. But an odd fact that I've discovered is that a lot of Thai ppl can actually speak Mandarin. Pretty amazing to me. Like maybe out of 10 Thais we meet, about 5 could actually converse in Mandarin. Shopping was great! I am still so regretful for not buying some skirts and pants, I was overwhelmed with choices and was being indecisive. Eventually, we ran out of time, and we had to leave. grrrr.

Now that I'm back in Brunei, I realise all I do is run errands for the family. Top of the list is sending sisters here and there -_-". But it's not like I'm so busy anyway. I'm too free..hehehe. I seriously have to think of some things to do. I just wake up, eat, run errands, eat, sleep. Need to exerciseee.. I keep on gaining weight:S

Ahh.. I'm so relieved, my dad bought my mom a car... now I can use her old car freely without having to wait for her to come home from work or anywhere. yay:)

I went on a crazy spring cleaning spree yesterday for the whole afternoon till night. Threw out SO much stuff. Most were old magazines from like year 2001/2/3, college/uni application booklets, very unuseful documents, old projects from more than ten years ago(as in primary school projects), rusty jewelleries from donkey years ago, unwanted electronic gadgets and wires, useless softwares and half-spoiled things.....so MUCH crap. I managed to fill up one whole black garbage bag till I couldn't lift it, and magazines thrown separately, and two whole rubbish bins. Sheesh, they should have all been gone long ago. The cupboards, drawers and tables are so much clearer now from clutter and mess.

Talking about noob-ness, I was at Bandar today, coz I had a sudden roti kosong craving and I was at Jubilee to collect my mom's DVDs. So, I parked at the side of HSBC near the traffic lights. And after parking, I was like ahh.. nice, perfect parking, just a few steps away from restaurant. And when I got back into the car, I saw this white paper stuck on the car. It's a paper saying I have done a "kesalahan" somewhere. And when I read it was something like, "parking tanpa koupon". So, I went SHIT! Coz it somehow looked like Shenny's accident form, the format and all. And I was so freaked out..hahah I called Shen.. but no answer(shenny was in class:P) I was like crap, I'll make mummy go to court coz of this. Then I started looking for one of those parking stalls where u pay ur parking fee. And there it was, just behind the car. Rushed down the car and asked how to settle that paper. And when the lady said, "tak apa ni, bayar 50 sen saja", I went "phewww!" in my heart. So cheap some more..hehee. So ya.. but anyway, it's not my fault. Totally didn't know that coupon thing existed in Bandar...apparently it was there long ago, around a year back.

After the whole parking fine incident, I went on the highway to Jerudong to buy prawns. LOL. very random. I was also trying to familiarise myself with the highway, haven't driven on it before, though I've been driven on that road countless times. And buy prawns, to try cooking buttermilk prawns. Hope it would come out successful, fingers crossed. Love that dish:P I always order it in restaurants.

Piano talk: I so want to play a full piece, but I'm so lazy whenever I can't continue playing the rest of the piece. As in when I learn the start, I'm ok, but when there comes a part where I can't continue playing, I just stop. I don't strive on. tsk tsk. Then, I move on to another piece. And this happens to all the other pieces. So, I now only know how to play the beginning of a good number of pieces, but never the full thing of each of the piece. GRRrr. I should be more determined to at least finish 1 or 2 OR 3 FULL pieces. I'm so lazy blergh

Okay, time for sleep now.

wow!

seemed like a super duper long time since i blogged. Just realised my last post was made last year, which means this post would be my first post of the year 2010. ok, since this post is the first post of this year, i'd like to wish everyone and this bloggie, a very Happy New Year 2010. well, 2009 has passed, and to say the truth, year 2009 was not that bad for me; minus those few bad daysss i had. now that i tried to recall back, year 2009 was quite a good year.

so referring to my last post. sighs~ i got supplementary for my maths. my other results were quite good, and i was very satisfied with the results. really. but i just dont know what happened to my maths, and i just took the supp two days ago. it was bad. but i still hope my teacher would give me a pass, if not, i really dont know what else i can do in ubd already. gahhh! Praying hard now!

dang, whenever i think about my supp and all, i'd have no mood at all to do anything, so i guess i'l end this post here. sorry peeps if this post sound a bit... doinks. yea, doinks. im still with my 'doinks' around.

so, till the next post. hope it'd be a good news.. cheers! :D