oh yes!

my brother is not leaving yet.... he decided to join the second batch, somewhere April.. so yeahs!

now i'l have time to argue with him until april... haha!

gahhh, mid semester break is next week, and it's not going to be Holiday for me.. because seriously, seriously a lot to do during the break..... most of the assignmentssss are going to be due after the break........ so much to do, so lil time.

hmm, i was jus thinking yesterday, that i should just stay home and do all my works for a week........ but hm, before i even think of this... i can alreadyy see the doubtss in myself and all my friends...... im sooo very sure that everyone of them will NOT believe i can, stay home and not go out for a week.......

but like what jenny says, if i really can.. then it benefits me alot actually, so hmm... i'v thought it over just now.. i will try to go out less at night and uhm, i'l make a to-do-list during the break tonight or tomorrow.

yes, yes i will do it.. hah! :)

a sudden urge to blog..

because im unhappy+sad+moody... gah` i dontknow.

my brother is leaving this weekend. so sudden. we just got calls from my uncle this morning that he has to be in the uni ledy by next week and my uncle wanted him to reach kuching by this sat/sun so that he can show my brother the way to the campus.

btw, my brother is going to study in kuching at the limkokwing uni... interior design.. hmm.. and he said he'd apply to the one in kl when he settle down, cuz everything happened so sudden. the last time i heard, they were only discussing about where and which uni to go and then was asking my uncle from kuching to help.. and now he has to leave already. so soon!! though it's near,kuching... but still.... so SOON!

yesss!! I feel sad la... that he's leaving so soon... no time for me to get ready to be sad and all.. and he's always busy lagi nowadays; totally felt like i havent been talking to him or anything..and now he has to leave already. sighs`

to think that he'd not be staying with us, i really feel sad la/

uhwells,time to go airport to send off a friennd..........two friends actually..

.............be right back.............

backsss.....
i told a friend how i felt and haha, she told me it's normal to feel this wayy..cuz it's the first time and sooner when he comes and go back there more often, i wouldnt feel anything already..hopefully..

ahwells, i'l see....

wut i know now is, i will definetely feel different without his presence here.......like, hmm... i'l miss calling 'ahko' at home....

lalala....

so uni life for me here has been hectic........ i dontknow. i have to work extra hard now to get good marks for all..i dont want to do badly in my subjects....BUT i just cant seem to concentrate, YET!!!

how i wish and wish, that the time will pause for a while for me to catch up with some stuffs...... :)

Blogging again

I think I'm blogging abit too much these days. And delaying my pics post.
But like, I dunno. I always need to rant nowadays. rant rant rant.
It's like as if I'm turning this blog into an online diary or something.

Anyway.. as of now, my right wrist+arm is hurting. Eeesh, so pain. Went to play badminton yesterday. How weird. It's like months/years since I last played, and I play like crap/freaking beginner level. And so my wrist+arm is having a painful muscle cramp now. And it shakes when I try to write with a pen. haihh..And woke up with body ache.

Today we had this faculty lunch thing. And then while the juniors/freshers were having their free lunch after their course info session, we had a booth there, promoting the club. Actually, we didn't have much hope of signing many people, but soon more came. And at the end of the day, we had about 27 people. Very amazing, considering we had only two who registered last year, middle of the year's orientation. Power of persuasion man! Must persuade, tell people the benefits, get them interested and all. haha, had a look at all the filled up forms, cause it's my duty to keep them and update the members' info onto the database. I FEEL SO OLD! OLd old old. haha, that's only cause right, these new first years were all born in 1989,1990, 1991. Most of them are 1990. haihhh.. feel so senior+old. Like they look normal, not too young, but they're YOUNG. ok, point is I feel old lar.. I still can remember the day when I was the one who was entering first year and now it's history.

After that whole thing, I met up with Teo for a while before he headed to class. Had a light lunch and great chat with him and then we went to collect my marked 2nd essay. The stupid f*cker tutor gave me such a low mark (ahem, excuse my vulgarity, very angryyy). EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEeeeeeee. It's like I simply do my first essay, get 68/100. And some smart girl did hers and she got 70+ only. why mark so harshly? stupid tutor. Then.. this time, I did better, like did more research, read his comments and try to improve and all.. and I still get only 72. sigh. stupid. I was counting on this 2nd essay to get more marks on my overall final mark, coz my final exam..was just ok, I'm quite scared I might not do well. Aiyerr I just wanna pass. Do I sound like my expectation is very high? I dunno coz this is one of the subjects that I might/can try to do well but I didn't/can't. My engineering subjects are definitely hard as hell to score at all. Must study like crazy and I procrastinate. So I get low low low marks, around pass or 60+ only. I am sad.

So now I am relaxing at home. I'm so lazy to move my ass and clean up my table's mess. Ok ciao! I want to nap.

TV

Hey guys..

Haven't been having the mood to reply to anything at all. e-mails, facebook, comments, tagboard. hehehe.. I must have mood to do that one.. :P so don't mind my unresponsiveness.

Anyway,
My mood is a little lifted when I see so many people in uni. I mean, during summer, it's as quiet as hell. Only random ppl, maybe 10-20% of the uni's population are there. Maybe even less. And I always felt so lonely.. and like the uni is dead zone or something.
These few days, there's orientation and all. So, you see lots of new ppl going around uni.. enrolling and looking for their buildings to go to. And medical (ahem, teo) and dentistry ppl have started their classes. Trinity college ppl are seen around uni.. so yea.. the uni is alive and bustling again. How I miss the atmosphere. Shit man.. does that mean I cannot live in solitude or wat. I feel happy that people are coming back and I get to see them again. coz all these while, they're back home holiday-ing. I think I like to be part of a crowded atmosphere or something. EEEks i'm so weird. The same feeling happens when I'm on the streets. when it's quiet, I feel so weird and like lonely. When it's crowded, I feel part of something big. Maybe I just like to watch ppl. ok, too much crap here.

Back to my topic, TV.
Last Saturday, I decided to watch TV. Mind you, I don't usually watch TV. I have forsaken TV long ago. I used to watch moderately in my first two years here but later on.. other priorities have taken over my life. Yes, the dreaded assignments, readings, mid-semester tests, preparations for classes I have to do. So sad. What a life I have! then.. only occasionally I switch on the tv. maybe twice a week? sometimes, never ever in a week. Anyway.. the channels I have are kinda boring anyway. It's like national television networks la..boring! no Chinese channels (duh.. unless it's Astro), no mtv, no movie channels, no discovery channels, no E! channel. So sien.

But there is something that resembles Astro here.. it's called Foxtel. The apartment that Vc is staying at has it. But I never go and on it also anyway. Coz I just lost interest in TV altogether already ..after all these while. And by watching TV, I don't mean movies that u downloaded and watch.. I mean, flipping thru channels and catching the shows, and like if u miss it, u miss it. And you don't have to think of wat to watch, like u do when u watch shows on the computer. TV, u just mindlessly watch what's on the TV.

So, that faithful day, I turned on the tv. And omgg.. sat there, being a couch potato for hours. I think almost 5 hrs. Kinda re-discovered the joy of watching tv man. U know I used to be a tv addict, would flip thru the Astro guide book, circle which shows I wanna watch throughout the day, and watch accordingly, like a timetable. Anyway, managed to catch some shows, like 2 episodes of Sex and the City, The Simple Life & The Hills after that (dunno why I was watching these two, just got curious abt what these shows were about, interesting, but I kept rolling my eyes), Anatomy of a Snake bite (lol, this was on discovery channel), Gilmore girls & Gossip Girl (oh man, spoiler. I only knew what happened in season 1. then suddenly the girl was with another guy in season 2.. eeesh).

Watched the Academy Awards yesterday night, one/two nights later than the actual thing. Makes me wanna watch all the movies that were nominated. Like, The Reader, The curious case of benjamin button, Milk and of course, the SLUMDOG MILLIONAIRE. Happy that Heath Ledger won the best supporting actor, hurray for him. Owh, and Meryl Streep, Nicole Kidman and Anne Hathaway are so pretty and glam. Btw, Hugh Jackman's humor amazes me coz he's always so dead serious as Wolverine. Oh and Beyonce's voice is super power!

I think I just wasted ur time, talking about nonsensical bullcrap. wahhaha. sry guys.

p/s: super long post may be delayed due to unforeseen laziness

Too cute~~~

Went to the weekly Night Market yesterday, only on every Wednesday, but ending next week. It's like a "pasar malam" but it's angmoh style. haha. So there were food stalls, and stalls selling random things.

Then I stopped at this stall. So freaking damn cute............THE CUPCAKES they were selling!!

So someone bought for me after I pestered him. lol.

so kiiiuuuut and pweeeeeety.

There were at least 10 more other different styles & decorations on the different flavoured cupcakes. Too bad I didn't bring my camera there to take pictures of them. Everyone crowded around the stall squealing at how cute they were. haha. Feel like going again lar, next week.

p/s: Sorry yea peeps, hahaha I DO KNOW dat the pictures are very repetitive. But so pretty.. cannot stop snapping.

my promise~

Yes, shenny also want to promise to blog...most probably by next weekend too...haha, kiasuuu hor....wana compete with Jasmine Yap baaa! lol.. KIDDINGS!!

i'v been very busy lately; both with studies and outings... i have always like to do my work last minute and so that explains whyy my due works are all piling up and it's all due this week lagii. gahhh!! i gotta change this bad habit..... if not i dun think i can survive in ubd :(

also, been out alot latelyyy.. not good for studies. *red lights*

anyhows` will start to blog again next week, most probably after my exam on tuesdayy... so till then..... wish me many lucksss for my exam,or is it test..ah, wutever...what i know is this test wil contribute 15% to the overall course.. and that's a lot of marks!!!!!

anyways, before I end this blog.... some picturess I took on the chapgohmeh.. it was also my Aunt Joey's birthday so yeahs.... :)

my loves

Aunt Joey & her sister + my sisters and myself

Aunt Joey & I

YEA, i wished these flowers were for me........ But

they are hers actually from my uncle; her husband=p

Ciao`

I promise u...

a SUPER LONG blog post, less words, more pics maybe. By next weekend :P

Cramming for exam at the moment. Exam on Wednesday. sigh.

Oh, here's something for you to read.

it's about Facebook.

http://www.huffingtonpost.com/tara-stiles/help-im-addicted-to-faceb_b_166726.html
quite a cute and funny article

AND

a funny video about Facebook by this v-logger HappySlip

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KV4PNwpqsCc&feature=PlayList&p=4811CB6641C566EC&playnext=1&index=28

essay...yada yada yada

I have 500+ more words to go. Must do it, can do it. got about 15 hrs left. SURE CAN LAH!

Now, I relax a bit.

I find it funny + weird how every single time, when I get the essay question/look at it for the first time, I go O_O and feel like it's an impossible task to perform. The feeling is like "omfg, how to write anything about it? The question is just two effing lines aye.". Then slowly, I either 1) talk to someone about it 2) pester someone about it, hehe or 3) come up with something and ask tutor/lecturer if my main points/arguments are correct. Somehow, someway, I always end up writing up the whole thing (Duh! otherwise, how to hand in?). But the thing is, I always need need need to have a big picture. Like what are my main points and all, then only elaborate. Ok, I'm sounding like some English teacher teaching u how to write essay already.

But, weird thing is, this time, I didn't ask anyone at all/talk about it to anyone. A friend of mine who has done this subject sent me his whole essay about the same topic 2 years ago. Stupid, they recycle their questions. But he was only required to write 500 words on it, whereas me, 2000 aye. So.. his essay was basically.. of no use to me. Different points and all also. So.. I am taking a risk this time. Don't know if my points are right, but who cares, I'm quite confident in them. nyeah.

Oh, anyway, back to my point. I find it weird how in the end, it just gets done. Due to time pressure, always. I always think they're impossible to do, but always, in the end, with the do or die attitude, it CAN be done.

You know what the funny thing is? I could opt to not write essays! Just cause I chose this management subject, I had to write 2 essays. Chose it as an elective. I mean, I could have gone and done some maths/science/other faculties' subjects, but I chose this. No particular reason why. Just a choice. Maybe, in the back of my mind, I wanna be a Commerce student? hmm..not really. But I have been exploring with Commerce, by choosing all 3 electives so far from their faculty. Introductory Microeconomics, Finance and Managing People and Organisations. And each of those has 2 big essays to write. I'm weird.

OMG

I've almost never ever felt the urge to blog so much.
Shit, I know I shouldn't make this blog feel like some place that I only use to vent frustrations and anger. But I realise I do. When I feel like crap, I tend to wanna blog. I know it's a bit mean to the readers. Should blog more happy stuff next time, when I'm really happy. Should be fair, pour out happiness AND sadness as well.

I feel so frustrated. I still have not gotten the reply I want from the uni. And I feel there is no hope already. no more, not even a single bit of hope. And it's gonna affect everything. Not just for a matter of short while, but for years. Die man die. Don't know why I never realised it. I could have prevented all these bullcrap from happening. Could have seen what the consequences are, but I didn't. Why? Why did I let all these happen, thinking there's a way to fix it, some how, some way, like how I always managed to. I should have known that we can never fight the rules, the rules are rigid. They can't change it for anyone at all, definitely not for me. sigh. Regret is so useless now.

And this frustration always creeps in and disturbs what I should be doing on a normal basis. Really annoying. Really hinders my productivity in my usual work (work as in school work, not "work" work, i wish i have the "work" work).

I'm getting a hunched back. Keep having to sit at a table for hours crouching over my papers, book and computer. Getting all conscious over my sitting postures nowadays and trying to walk straight all the time without hunching over.

Fun. I want fun. I hope I get some fun out of my life, after I get over this whole thing, which is gonna take a while to get used to. So stressed out everyday. Sigh and then, semester 1's starting soon in March. There's a lot of things I wanna do, that I can't do just cause I'm being bogged down by this subject. I gotta endure.. for at least a week more. After essay, I'll have to study like a mad woman, until my exam on the 18th. Cram cram cram.

Late!

Ok, time for me to lash out again.

I am so damn annoyed+ angry. But I have to blame myself still. Last night, I stayed up all night, trying to do 2 things. 1st, to research on my essay, 2nd, to prepare for my tute the next day (which is today). I ended up sleeping at 6 am. But, well, at least, I've done super preparation for my tute, writing all the stuffs down, answering the questions. And then, before I went to sleep for abt 2 hrs, I made myself mentally alert, so that I will get up as soon as my alarm rings. Eventually, I did. I got up at 8. But damn it......there is the SNOOZE button. The next time I popped awake, my eyes darted to the clock and it's 10 am. Holy shit......my class is from 9-11 am.

First half of the class is supposed to be everything that I've worked on last night.. and I missed it. Bloody hell. So.. was wondering, hmm, should I still go? Then it hit me, OF COURSE I had to go. The 1st essay is given out today and there's an exam revision/review coz this is the last week of classes. Darn it.. Somehow, I managed to reach class at 10.30 am, lucky I live near the uni.

But that's not the end. Tutor asked "It's a bit too late isn't it?". I replied "yeah..sorry~ :S". Then ok, they were doing some new group work and I had to look and not do it coz I missed it and they were discussing some stuff already among the group. Then the tutor asked "Jasmine, why are u late?". Then my mind wanted to fakely make up something, like I missed the train/bus/tram or whatsover, or any other excuses, but it's not fast enough, to think.. coz he was staring right at me, so I had to give an instant answer. So, I said "er.. I couldn't get up". Then he gave me the "u're not very responsible" look. Dammnnnn. Down goes my participation marks. Moreover, I've missed 1/6 classes as well and did not contribute that much during other days in discussinons. And participation marks is 10% ahh...sheesh.

Oh, then the guy next to me tried to explain what they were doing and tutor said to him, "I know u're trying to explain this stuff, but I'd rather you focus on the discussion that is going on among ur group members". -_-" Embarassed much. sigh. This tutor also marked us freaking harshly on our first essay. Damn him. Thought he was a nice guy.

Ok, essay due on Friday. Have not even started writing 1/4 or 10% of it. Someone should kill me. But gonna do it whole of today + tomorrow. Just have to vent my anger before I do anything. Sigh. Exam is coming soon. Hope I can stuff everything in my head and then regurgitate them out in the exam. Hope hope hope.

Yesterday I had to carry like 7 kilos of library reference books back home. Very the heavy! Shoulder became so sore. And that does not include another bunch which I had to also carry inside my schoolbag. Wish I have a car. haih. Carry and walk from uni and tram and walk home again.

I don't know why the weather became bloody cold today. Summer heat (40+ deg) the other day, then today straightaway it turned to winter cold. Currently it's 16 deg. I swear someone will shiver uncontrollably if he/she had worn shorts & just a shirt coz the wind was so strong and it rained a bit just now.

Got my laptop already. Happy happy. Finally got to ditch my 3-year old laptop for a new one. Using it now to officially blog with it for the first time, hahah. Pic down here. heehee. I'm still not used to it. Coz, it's a bit bigger than my previous one, and it's windows Vista. I have always been a traditional XP user.. so Vista is a little complicated for me currently.

Ok, time to get going. Time to work hard.

p/s: OH, I have become an auntie, officially. I heard from my sis last night, that my cousin gave birth two nights ago. Cousin as in first-cousin, ur parents' nieces/nephews. So glad..haha, first time leh~ I think I'll be a 'biu yee" lol, funny.

Productive Day..

Well.. apart from me missing lecture. Will have to read up the lecture slides and textbook then.

Today, I:
- vacuumed the house
- arranged books on the bookshelf
- procrastinated a bit, went to wikipedia and google search this and that, all un-necessary stuffs.
- cooked dinner, now I'm full
- cleaned my study desk, now I should be able to do study better aye
- took out curling tongs and started curling hair, which is totally unnecessary, another way of procrastinating I guess
- found the songs I've always wanted to download
aiyo i live a boring life.

Felt like going to shop for groceries, but then again, lazy to step out of the house.

I should start researching for my new essay to write. sigh, this time is worst, 2000 words. Can die.

Weather has been weird as hell and is gonna be even weirder. Friday is apparently 32 deg. Then, Saturday will be 43 deg..wtf, desert weather again. Then Sunday, 23, why so big jump, I don't get it. And it doesn't help that it's 8.11 pm now and I still can see the sun. Feels very unusual, eating dinner with the sun's brightness streaming in from outside.

A lil happier

Ok, random-ness first.

This was candidly taken by my sis in HK hotel room, after getting back from HK Disneyland.

MY masterpiece!

haha, ok very lame.

Haihh.. last week was hell-ish. Was super depressed to the core. Won't tell you why, but it has to do with uni. Was having the worst time of the year.. to be precise. But hope the problem can be solved. Last few days, I was anticipating the prob to be solved any day, then I got an email saying that the final outcome will only be known by end of next week.

And that's the reason why, today I feel a little happier.

Coz these few days, I kept thinking of the outcome.. bad/good, I dunno. And I dunno when it'll be out. But today I know. So I can relax for a bit.

Missed my tutorial last week, coz my family was here for CNY. Then today I went back to class. But it was like 13 days ago.. so I was feeling very very sluggish. Like arghh, I really don't feel like going and I was so not prepared. Moreover, in the tute, we have to discuss and talk a lot. So how to talk if I don't know much? Was worried about that, but phew! the tute was smooth flowing, I was able to bullshit my way thru the 2-hr class. And was kinda happy that I'm actually contributing to the discussions, I'm usually the laid-back one, who doesn't talk much. But then.. I had to force myself, coz 10% is accounted for tutorial participation in the final mark. That's another thing to be happy about.

Another happy thing is that I'm getting my laptop. Yay! Can't wait. It's a HP DV5 one. Happy! Coz I'm currently using VC's one, without all my things. So, it feels like something is missing, this laptop I'm using now feels very temporary.

Then I attended a friend's birthday dinner just now. I am very happy that I've finally met some friends again to talk and chat. Coz ever since my family was here, I have been with family for all of the time, and after they left, I just wanna chill at home. I have been at home for days already.

Alrighty, about CNY. It wasn't too bad. Family came over and I was the tour guide. We had the usual CNY dinners, giving of ang paos, cards gambling. OHh, and it's bloody annoying that I lost money gambling in the casino. KEKKK. Then everyday was a very tiring day, coz the weather was so hot (there was once, where it reach 44 deg, felt like we were being cooked in an oven). We visited places, did very touristy stuffs and by the end of the day"s", we were just dead tired, went home and KO-ed on the bed every night. But it was quite fun, showing them around. Just tiring, that's all coz there was ALOT of walking involved.

The bad thing is that, 26th Jan, CNY 1st day, was Australia Day. So like, they postponed the CNY celebrations to last Sunday 1 Feb. Kinda stupid coz my family missed it, they went back already by then. What a waste. Throughout Chinatown, there were lion dances at every shop, and dragon dance and parade as well. There was this giant dragon float too. Simultaneously, u could get like 5 pairs of lions, dancing at 5 different shops. And every shop has at least one LONG firecracker, some even had two. So, every now and then, and I mean every 10-15 mins, u'll hear firecrackers going off. Quite nice actually, the whole CNY atmosphere and mood.














I wanna go to Britney Spear's Circus world tour concert here! Damn, I dunno how to get the tickets, there's bound to be a long queue as soon as the tickets are released on sale and then, I won't get a good seat. EEEssh. Anyway, I dunno why but I wanna see her despite her big fallout during the Blackout album times. Apparently, she's doing pretty well now, I hope she keeps it up. Then the concert would be worth watching.

I actually wanted to blog about the HK Disneyland stuff, but have gotten lazy. Coz there would be too many pics to upload. lazyyyyyyy. Soo, will do that next time.

Until then,

once again,

Happy Chinese New Year, everyone!

GONG XI FA CAI!!!